In a Falsetto Oh Oh Oh!

Yes, so this random guy, The-Dream (don't forget the hyphen) has done something that very few people have done. He has made a mainstream R&B song that involves singing. I mean this is a never for me. But I must admit, I enjoy falsetto... mainly because of that crazy guitar solo that a lot of radio stations cut out, very Prince of him (which proves to me radio stations dont know ish about music, eff that "we need to cut it down for time ish", cut something else out).

Now this will not be a post praising this random dude named The-Dream for a couple of reasons. #1, he made, "Shawty is a 10". WTF? This guy is not a teenager so Imma need him no to come up with that mess. Seriously, I was awful. I've never heard that song all the way through, I turn that ish as soon as I hear that awful beat. #2, he made, "Umbrella" and "Bed" which all sound oddly like "Falsetto". I mean to the naked eye they sound different, but they use a lot of the same melodies and lines... but most notably, the, "eh eh eh eh"(Umbrella) "bed bed bed bed" (Bed) and "oh! oh! oh!" (Falsetto). Imma need him to be a bit more creative. And it would be different if each of those weren't integral to the song, but the are.

Just saying... but over all, yes. I enjoy Falsetto.

NOTE: I have had a rediculous amounts of hits with the key word, "what is a falsetto". For those who don't know, a falsetto is a singing technique that produces sounds that are pitched higher than the normal range, in the treble range.

Club Fed

So I'm watching this really wierd movie called Club Fed, and in the last 20 minutes, they have had a number of great quotes. I will list a few.

"She's also a harlot. I caught her in bed with the mailman, the milkman, and the butler, and all at the same time"

(This guy got a shocker put in his anus to correct his bad activies) "I just don't understand, do you still think it is necessary for me to be electronically raped?"

I think I am a quote fiend, I think imma make another post with some more quotes from other movies.

Over It!

I seem to have a knack for making the wrong choices in my life. I mean I really do. I don't feel like Ive made a right choice since deciding what high school to go to. I mean really. I feel like I made the wrong choice to leave my 1st college, I feel like I made some wrong personal choices while fresh out of college, I feel like I picked the wrong law school. And what is so crazy is I should have seen this one coming. I left the 1st college because of MONEY and I picked this law school because of MONEY. Money should never be what makes your decisions. Ever, I just believed then that it was too expensive for me to live in MD without a track scholarship (hells naw I wasnt running track for that team one more year...eff that) and I believed that living in DC/MD would be too expensive to go to law school there. I just feel like I have done the exact same thing that I did 5 years ago. I mean honestly. Did I not learn?

Yes, no choices are wrong choices, blah blah blah. But I just cant help but think this way. So in an effort NOT to double repeat my mistakes, I will stay my 2 and a half more years in TX, but just for the record, I think it was/is a stupid mistake my being there. I have no intention of ever staying in TX, so why did I even go? Because they were ranked #18? WTF? Come the hell on. I go to these networking things, and it is almost pointless because I do not want to work in TX. I am trying to get the bleep out of there ASAP. I have no idea why I didn't follow my first mind and go to one of the schools in DC where I was accepted. Plus, it is a well known fact, law firms hire most frequently from the local schools.... so someone just tell me what the bleep I was thinking.

This does not look like it is going to be a good break for me.... This is some ole bull ish man.

Venting

The only thing that sucks about NOT being is school is that I have so much leisure time, I tend to use it to think... and I tend to overanalyze. My new subject of overanalyzation is... was it a mistake not to go to one of the schools I got into in DC? I am starting to think that maybe it is. I mean, local firms tend to hire from local schools. I've gotten no interviews from anywhere but Texas, and everyone knows I do NOT want to stay in TX. This is really kind of upsetting me. Have I "pigeonholed" myself (for lack of a better word). I am soooo saddened by this, but you know, it will probably be OK. I just need to chill the bleep out. Like honestly.

This also gets me to thinking about WHERE I actually do want to end up. Well DC was and is always number one. Then Cali but I really don't want to consider Texas. Should I look out? Branch out to maybe New York or something? Who knows.

And then I start to feeling stupid because I feel like I picked the wrong school and for all the wrong reasons. I picked the school I am at now because it was mad cheap. I didn't pick a DC/MD school because of a really stupid reason that I cant even mention right now. I just don't know. I need to breath. This kinda sucks.

...OK Mr. Bitches

LOL. Comedy. Im done with finals. End of story. First semester over, 5 more and the bar to go.

Funniest Reality Show Moment Ever

Prior to today, it was Rock from Hell's Kitchen going off about crab and lobster bisque...BUT the Sister Patterson-Tailor Made bitch slap tops that off! Oh my gosh, I laughed for a good 4 minutes and replayed it a coupld of times. It was great. But why did she front slap and back slap him? And the shock on his face! Oh! It was great.

Best MJ Song Ever

Yeah, I already said Remember the Time was the best video ever... so Imma have to say that Remember the Time was also his best song ever. Yeah there were better songs he made, but its my favorite, ipso facto, the best.

Dang...

I hate to admit this, once again, but I do enjoy Kanye West's album Graduation. All of his ignorance aside. I feel it is produced very well. Now, the words, I mean they are OK, nothing like super out there special or anything. But I really am feeling the production and how he puts the songs together, especially Flashing Lights and Can't Tell Me Nothing. Hot beats man.

Top 5 Family Guy Quotes to Date

OK, so I'm studying and I came up with my top five funniest lines from Family Guy (they may not be verbatim as I am remembering them off my head:

5. How you uh, how you comin' on that novel you're working on? Huh? Gotta a big, uh, big stack of papers there? Gotta, gotta nice litte story you're working on there? Your big novel you've been working on for 3 years? Huh? Gotta, gotta compelling protaganist? Yeah? Gotta obstacle for him to overcome? Huh? Gotta story brewing there? Working on, working on that for quite some time? Huh? (voice getting higher pitched) Yea, talking about that 3 years ago. Been working on that the whole time? Nice little narrative? Beginning, middle, and end? Some friends become enemies, some enemies become friends? At the end your main character is richer from the experience? Yeah? Yeah? (voice returns to normal) No, no, you deserve some time off. -Stewie
4. Hi there, how would you like to go black and then have to make a difficult decision regarding whether or not to back? - Cleveland
3. Excuse me, is your refridgerator running? Because if it is, it probably runs like you... very homa-sexually. -Peter
2. Jim Henson took a "wait and see" approach and now we have wrong sounding muppets... -Brian
1. Uh, yes, I'd like 3000 chicken fa-ji-tas. -Peter

I just got some GOOD laughs in right now....yesss!

Im on the brink son!

Someone please explain to me why law school exams feel like I am taking the LSAT all over again? I am just trying to figure it out. I am not one to stress over things of this nature, but I will admit. I think I stressed myself sick. Yes yes, I have my second cold of the year. Or who knows, maybe it wasnt stress. It could be because it was 83 degrees Saturday, then turned 30 degrees Sunday night, 40 degrees yesterday, and 70 degrees and raining today.

Eh whatever, let us not complain about things we cannot control. I have never wanted a vacation more than now. Like for real. I just really want to read NOTHING for upwards for 4 weeks. I just don't want to. I am just now starting to understand the stress that is law school. It really is no joke. It is not stressful because the material is particularly hard. It's stressful because it is graded on a curve and thus becomes extremly competetive. Even if you get a A on your paper, if 10 people get an A-ier paper than you, you are stuck with that sucky B+. THIS is where the stress comes from. THIS is why law school is competitive.

Very boo, but hey it is what is is. And they say hazing isn't allowed in Fraternities/Sororities. Imma need someone to police the nature that is law school. For real.

Black Enough?

So, I turn on the TV this morning (yes, I had the TV on, but I had to record my shows so I COULD study...dang) and it was on, "Meet the Faith" on BET. They were having an interesting conversation as to being black enough. They had two "passe blanc" black people and two dark black people trying to have a conversation about being black. Now, granted, some of the comments were a bit off.. but I think they had some valid points. Made me think of some things;

Why was there even an issue when Obama announced his bid for presidency, why did people even ask if he was black enough? WTF, so why couldn't he have gone to Columbia and Harvard and still be black? I mean come on! He has a black wife! Just because he did not grow up in the streets do not mean he is not black. So irritating.

So then they were talking, and there was this dark dude talking about how lightskinned people take advantage of black people and how they treat black people as inferior. So the host (fine Ian Smith) asked him if he's ever dated a white or light skinned woman. Why did this fool say, "Hell Yeah. Like Kanye West said, we like mutts". WTF. How are you going to be saying all this ish and then turn around and are a product of it yourself?

Which got me thinking to myself. I have serious to severe color issues. Going to an all white school where you are the only black person in your class will kinda do that to you. I'm not saying that my color complex is justified, maybe excused (you criminal law heads will understand that), but it is what it is... Anyway, In the all of my 23 years, I don't think I've had a close lightskinned friend. Honestly. And it's not because I don't like skinned people, I just a have never had a tight tight girl friend that wasn't dark skinned. Now is this purposeful? I don't know. Is it a subconscious thing? Or is it manifested through something else? Who could know. Seriously though, my lightest skinned friend is my mom. LOL. I don't know if it is because I somehow don't feel connected, or because I don't give them a chance, I just don't know. Or maybe I am resentful because that is what mainstream TV shows as beautiful and I am putting my frustrations out on them. Who knows.

Back to studying.

30 Years to Life

I vaguely remember back in the day when "The Wood" and "The Best Man" came out, people were saying they were weren't representative of the African American community. WTF? Have you never heard of Buppies. I mean come on son. As everyone knows, I love LMN, and they actually played a black movie today, "30 years to life". This is definitely one of my favorite movies, mainly because it shows well to do non-ignorant black people. Not every black movie has to be those semi minstrel movies like, Soul Plane and ish.

Anyway, this is supposed to be about "30 Years to Life". This is a great movie for a couple of reason. #1, as said before, they showed well to do black people. One was a lawyer, one was trying to make partner at a business firm, they were just doing it up. #2, I think it is an accurate depiction of black friends in their mid to late 20's. Granted, I am still in my early twenties, however, being in grad school, most of my friends (outside of law school) are in their mid to late twenties. The relationships are real, the struggles are real. In addition, I think it addresses issues that young black professionals deal with.

Freaking great movie man...

Arg!

I can't put this under the "procrastinator" heading because technically I'm not procrastinating. But here are some thoughts.

So saddend that Criminal Law class is over. Definatley one of the best teachers I've ever had. Yes, he isn't the clearest in class, but if you go to his office hours, you can really tell that he cares about his students progress...which in my opinion is what makes a great teacher.

Imma have to beat these undergrads behinds in my complex. They act like because it is finals time, it is party time. WTF... Imma need you to take your school work a bit more seriously.

I just realized that four hours is NO time to take a test. At the beginning of school, I was like, "How can I possibly write for four hours". Yeah taking these Contracts practice tests...I totally understand. There is just so much information to get down on the paper.

I hate Con Law, and yet I have to take it again next semester. WTF? Well at least its about Race and the Constitution this time.

Grading on a curve sucks.

I need at least two A's... I don't give a what about minuses. I just need at LEAST 2 A's to get the job I want. That is serious business right there.

Note to All Public Smokers

Why do you feel you need to share you nasty ass addiction with the world. Imma need you to not be smoking when it's windy and it is blowing over all in my food and ish. That is so gross. I am just getting something that was in your mouth, blown all over my food? WTF? I don't want to share in your nasty ass habit. I just don't, so I'd appreciate it if you don't smoke in crowded places. It's gross. And to top it off... watch where you smoke. If there are people walking behind you, Imma need you to be cognizant of that fact. Because when you aren't, it ends up in my mouth as well.

Im also going to need you to not smell like stale smoke and cheap perfume/cologne trying to hide you habit.

I also think there really is no excuse for people who are under 30 to be smoking. I mean come on, older people, they werent quite aware of all of the negative effects of smoking, but young people, why do you even start? I am genuinly curious.

And this vent is not to secret smokers. At least you have the decency to keep that nasty ish to your self. For real.

Sorry if I offended anyone with this post, but your cigarette breath and smoke offends me daily, so I guess we will just both have to deal.

Musings of a Procrastinator v.6

Um, I really am procrastinating on my Rule Support, not because it is hard... simply because I'm bored with it. Anyway, here are some thoughts on TV

I'm mad that the writers are on strike. There was a tornado on Wisteria Lane and now we dont know it Lynette's familiy is alive. Not happy.

I "found out" that A Shot at Love with Tila Tequila is not real. Yeah, no reality shows are real, but this one is faker than most. Apparently, she's been in a committed relationship with a dude for over a year. I was shocked because this was one of the most "real" reality shows I thought I had seen. They sure were doing some good acting then. And Tila shows the wonders of makeup. Put a little dark eyeshadow on and you are all of a sudden pretty?

Something is really wrong with NY and her Mom. I don't care that this is reality TV, but no self respecting person acts like that. I mean her mom walks around like #1 she's fine and #2 she's somebody when in actuality she is NEITHER. I mean honestly, she needs to settle her behind down, looking like a dude and ish. How disrespectful can you be to someone? When the parents came, she was out of line. Just out of line. Lying and ish... flirting with The Entertainer's dad when his mom was right there. Just straight up trash and has the nerve to want to be refered to as "Sister Patterson". Oh yes, and the Entertainer was kinda cute. I'm saddended he's gone. Punk all the way...looking hot and ish.

The Hills chicks have all lost it. Well Heidi is kind of redeeming herself, but not really.

A Tad Late

Chris Noth aka Mr. Big aka Det. Mike Logan dates black women? Whoa. I guess we got us a bonefide Robert DeNiro on our hands. LOL. Although he's starting to look a bit washed out....

Isn't It Ironic, Don't You Think?

OK maybe not ironic, but interesting nonetheless. Today, a year ago, I took my LSAT. Today, I am mailing out my resumes for summer employement. I wrote a post about this a while back, but I think it needs to be said again. Since about Junior year, I decided I wanted to go to law school, however, trying to study for the LSAT and run track (D1 traveling every week, don't get it twisted) and have a job and do school was a bit too much for me, so I waited. One day, while at a less than mediocre temp job (3 months after graduation), I decided, I was going to take the LSAT. It really just happened while I was browsing the internet. At this point it was September 1, 2006. I IMMEDIATLY signed up with Kaplan to take an exam prep course that started September 13, 2006. At this point, I had NO recommendations, NO personal statement, NO idea of where I wanted to apply. To make a long story short, I got all of that together in a period of three in a half months... when in actuality, the career councelors want to tell people you should take a year to a year and a half with the process. None of my stuff was half done, none of my stuff was rushed.

So basically, I'm just saying if you want to do something DO IT and don't listen to what anyone tells you. It just requires a bit of hard work. In the year and a half that they told me I should take to prepare, I; studied and did WELL on the LSAT, wrote personal statement, got recommendations, visited schools, got accepted to 9 out of 10 schools I applied to (and what's funny, I got waitlisted at AMERICAN, WTF... they are ranked 48!!!), moved across the country, started law school, and now I am about to take my first set of exams.

And no, this is not a self important post, I just want people to know it can be done. It doesnt have to be done the way they tell you. You do it the best way you know how and the best way you can.

EFF THIS ISH MAN

I HATE LAW SCHOOL. Not the schoolwork or the classes or the time I have to spend studying. I HATE THE PEOPLE IN LAW SCHOOL. Self important bastards. Um, once again, this is another irritation post. As finals approach, people's real personality oozes out. I'm not talking about my real friends, I am talking about people in my classes. It is soooo annoying. Like why are people betting for grades. I am really going to need you to get a life. And why are people competing so tough with each other? Talking about, "how many pages is your outline"..."how much sleep did you get last night?" Just let me know who the eff cares. I am just trying to figure it out. Oh, oh oh, what's even worse is the fact that

Snoop? Really? Flying Carpet and ish?

It should be painfully obvious now that using a vocador can make anyone sound good. Sensual Seduction by Snoop Dogg has him singing with a vocador, and while he doesn't sound good, he sounds interesting. And the video? HAHHAHHAHA. Oh lort. Huggie Bear anyone? I'm just trying to figure it out. It looks like an old Earth Wind and Fire video or something. I got a couple of goods laughs from it.

Why I Love My Boyfriend v.2

6. He's pretty, gorgeous, beautiful, cute, and every descriptive word for physical perfection you can think of.

5. He is genuinely a good person. He's not fake. He's not phony. He's nothing but himself and I love him for it.

4. We can talk on Skype for hours and hours and sometimes not really have anything to say, but we will still stare at each other.

3. He will love me, even if I fail out of law school (I won't, but he said he would if I did. lol)

2. He tries sooooo hard to make me happy. His effort makes me feel so good inside.

1. After 4 years, he can still make me blush like a 5th grader with her first crush. I still get excited when I see his name on caller ID...maybe I am just easily excitable, who knows.

Musings of a Procrastinator v.5

Um, I'm not happy that Helio Castroneves won. Not even a little bit. Yes, he was good, yes he is HOT, but that is all besidde the point. Mel was such a better dancer. I'm just saying. Plus I want Max to win one time, with his hot behind. But yes, Helio can get it on 25 different levels but once again, that is neither here nor there.

I don't understand why when people wear Uggs, they all of a sudden forget how to pick up their feet. Massivly annoying. The shoes aren't that heavy. Come ON now.

Law school students suck...not law school. Just the students.

Boondocks has lost it. I fail to see why it is necessary to say Ni$$A and bitch every 2 seconds.

I really need Bianca not to be there on ANTM any more. Her haterish ass is really starting to annoy me.

Someone in my Contracts class periodically smells like boo boo

Did I say I am so over these dumb ass people in law school. I really don't want to be here any more. I've gone through three clases, that's enough right? I can't be a practicing attorney with three classes under my belt?

WTF...

I am so mad at the Salt and Pepa show... hella giving misinformation about the whole Jena 6 thing. They told the story all out of sequence. They didn't even understand what the damn problem was... it was aggravated assault... not attempted murder. THAT WAS THE PROBLEM. And I love how they totally forgot to say ole boy was a repeat offender. Effing recidivist... learn about the damn law. Recidivists SO get punished more steeply than first time offenders... this is not to say that the deserve the degree of punishment, but it's like come ON. You can't ignore relevant facts! I mean just hella doing much... I was really upset. This is whole people get misinformed about things. If you are going to tell a story, you need to tell all sides of the story, not just the side that buttress your argument. COME ON... so upset. This episode is beyond ignorant.

I'm Seriously Vomitous

I just found out some awful news in regards to my ex track team that makes me want to throw away all of my school track issued stuff. However, since that is most of my wardrobe. I don't think it will be possible.

I just want to know why most track athlete (sans myself and a few choice others) are all adulterous sultatious whores? I mean just effing everybody. It's not cute. Get a lift. Move on. Entitlement is a bitch isnt it?

Home Sweet Home

It is sooo true. You don't know what you've got until its gone. I remember being so excited about leavign California in August. I was just so anxious to get out of the boringness that is the Bay Area... yes, I would like to renege on this. I don't know if I CAN live anywhere else. Well actually, not true, I can...I'm doing it now. But I just still dont understand why it was 87 degrees when I was leaving Austin. Honestly, what is that?

But yes, it's crazy. I miss the cold. I miss wearing sweaters. I miss good food. I miss the sound of the heat. I miss seeing the water. I miss my parents. I miss my boyfriend. I miss California.

Let's see if I will be lucky enough to have the job search liken a job from LA/SF to fall in my lap. Let us hope.

Musings of a Procrastinator v.4

Why does everyone think that they are a model? I'm just saying. Especially in facebook profiles and ish... going to get that glamour shot and everything. I actually think it is funny. It's like you're not over 5'7... settle your behind down.

Why did someone steal a hug from me yesterday and I was really offended. It's like, you know that I don't hug and you are just going to try to make me hug you? WTF?

Please tell me why I accidentally told one of my friends that I think he's asexual?

Is it just me or is that song "9mm" by David Banner, Akon, and Snoop like 85x better when they say, "Busting out of your speakers" as opposed to "Got a 9mm". Like why did they even need to go there? It loses its musical efficacy with all that bullish.

I think I really need to take ballroom lessons, I was getting it with myself after I finished my Con Law paper 3 days early. I was quickstepping with myself, mamboing, and even a little cha-cha.

I will be at home in the Bay Area in a little more than 24 hours... is that NOT beautiful... I mean honestly.

Why, at the beginning of the year, did I think the Black Graduate Students were really wierd and that the law school students were normal. And why, on November 19, has that TOTALLY switched around? They are like the most normal black people I've met since being in Austin.... maybe I should actually go to the meetings huh?

Just Wow... Who Knew Birds Could Be So Emotional?

There really is nothing I can say... just honestly.... HONESTLY. Man... seriously. If I EVER find someone, anyone that shares my love for her (Keiko Matsui that is) music... Title is called White Owl.

Time Signatures

#1...What is the difference between 3/4 and 6/8 time signature. I know that in 6/8 there is a harder beat on the fourth beat...but beside that, I really can't hear a difference.

#2... Why is it that songs that are not classical in nature that are written in 3/4 or 6/8 time signature sounds really hot to me. Like "The Kill" by 30 seconds to Mars... and pretty much all pop-jazz songs. They sound really dreamy to me... like floating on air. I guess that is why waltzes are in 3/4 time... to covey that feeling of floating on air. Who knows

Here Comes Another

MAN! I am sorry, I must do it again. I must. I was trying to limit my posts about music...but when I am studying so much, there is no possible way I can do this. So, when I am studying, I like listening to Jazz. It depends on what type of studying. Deep studying, I listen to strictly instrumental jazz that has a sort of film-score like quality. Songs that are usually, upwards of 6 plus minutes without too much excitement. For daily reading, I listen to pop-jazz (I hate that name, but it is what it is) and sort of old school jazz.

Today, I am in deep study mode as I have to prepare for my second paper I am going to get tomorrow for Con Law. So who am I listening to? I am listening to my favorite pianist...Keiko Matsui. I mean seriously, it used to be a tie between Philippe Saisse and Keiko Matsui for my favorite pianist, but lets be real, there is no contest. I can't even describe here music. There is just so much on so many different levels.

Like I said in another post, music is so much more than just playing your instrument. It is all about the production. Maybe I should be giving props to her ex-husband, Kazu Matsui who produces all of her music. Anyway, so far I have sat here and listened to 4 CD's straight through and I have gotten something different from each of them. It is crazy. Most artists can and only stick to one genre, but not Keiko. She is the definition of experimentation and I LOVE IT.

So far, my favorite CD is definitly Dream Walk because it is possibly her most haunting CD. I love the slow, drawn out melodies with the kind of synth-y backgrounds, it is just absolutely beautify. Second favorite would have to be Wildflower because that one has a lot of film-score like songs on it that just take you in... definitely the most dramatic of the albums.

Man....... good stuff man.

That Sinking Feeling

So, it's after November 1, which means that 1l's can start looking for jobs. As much as I try to fight it, I am having that very same feeling that I was having less than a year ago... I am trying really hard to keep positive, but I can't. It's like the SAME feeling. Last year, I was not worried about my LSAT score, I knew I had that under control, but I was worried about my resume and my personal statement. Right now, I am not worried about my finals or what my grades will come out to be...I am worried about my resume and my cover letter.

It really sucks when you have done soooo much and achieved so much in a particular field and have nothing to show for it. I mean, I'm pretty sure that the hiring partners and recruitment coordinators won't care that instead of spending my summers doing internships, I was competing in track meets nationwide. I am sure that they don't care that although my GPA was only a 3.4, I managed to graduate in 4 years even though I transferred schools and lost about 10 credits AND ran track AND had a job to boot. Actually, it's not that they won't care, it's the fact that they won't even take the time to search that out... which is what really sucks.

I mean honestly, I just don't feel like people understand what it means and how hard it is to be a student-athlete (well one that actually cares about the student part anyway). I had to give up interning for people And the thing of it is... I did not run track at some D3 school... no, I ran track in a D1, PAC-10 school. What I went through was real. It was not some activity. I had the chance to go pro, BUT I didn't. I put that aside to go to law school, because even though my lack of internships might not show, THIS was my number one dream. But no... no hiring partner is going to look at that...

Is It Wrong...?

Is it wrong that I listen to old school jazz when I am studying because it reminds me of a night on the town in a large city? Is it wrong that I listen to this music while I am studying to remind myself of my ultimate goal... to work in a big firm in DC that will HAVE nights on the town...that will pay me what I am worth?

Is it wrong that I never want to live pay check to pay check? Is it wrong that I don't want to do enough to get by, and that I actually want to be sucessful?

Is it wrong that when I look at my future, I see myself as being sucessful in an office with a view in the District of Columbia? Is it wrong that I see myself with an equally successful man with whom I will have children who will be asking WHICH college they are going to not IF they are even going?

Is it wrong that I want a good life for myself and my would be family? Is it wrong that I never want me or my family to ever go for want? Is it wrong that I want to be able to make enough money to be able to somehow repay my parents back for all of the sacrifices they had to make to put my in private school instead of the Oakland Public School I was bound for? Just let me know if it is wrong?

Yeah, I didn't think so, so when people try to make me feel bad about my goals and aspirations I am really confused. I used to wonder what that said about me. Before I came to law school I was guilted into beliving that if I said I wanted any of these things that I was being boogie...just like my parents. But now, it makes me wonder what is up with the person that sad that too me. Why do THEY think that it is OK to be mediocre and to not live up to your potential. Why do THEY believe that it is OK to just skate by in life? Why? Is it somewhat admirable to struggle? I don't understand the logic behind people trying to guilt others into being mediocre like themselves.

I like to think that I have accomplished somethings in my life, but I have always done just enough to get by. I am not an A student... I am a straight up and done B+/A- student. I am sick of seeing that on my transcripts... straight up and down sick of it. So... to all of the people that see me relentlessly studying, don't judge me, I just ask that you somewhat understand. I have never wanted anything more in my life, nor have I tried or put more effort into anything in my entire life. So if you cannot accept it for what it is... that is saying more about you than me.

What I Don't Like About You...Texas

So, basically in the four months that I have been in Texas, I have not felt the need to complain about anything...until this week. I don't know, maybe it is because I am homes sick and am counting the days until I can go back to Cali (16 days to be exact) or maybe it is because it is no longer new to me and I am seeing it for what it is...eh.. who knows. Anyway, here come the complaints.

#1: Why do I feel like everywhere I go, and almost every person(black) person I talk to do I feel like I am being judged because I don't go to church? This was not a big deal in California, at all. If you went to church you went, and if you didn't, you didn't. End of story. But here I feel like people chastise you and seriously judge you if you don't go to church. Just because I don't go to church does not mean that I am an atheist or even agnostic (not that there is anythign wrong with that either)...the only thing it means is that I don't go to church. One of my friends was like really adamant about it too, he was like, "I just really want you to come to church with me"...like it hurt him that I don't go... I just don't understand. I'm a bedside baptist...it is the way that I deal with things...please do not judge me. Everyone shows their faith differently. Understand and accept that, how bout it?

#2: Why can I not get decent chinese food here? I mean it is Mexicanized or something, I can't even explain it really. I suppose growing up in the Bay Area has spoiled me but come ON! And I thought Maryland chinese food was lacking...OH WAIT, there's more. Why can I not get a decent Italian food meal here either? I mean, there is a problem when you have to go to Red Lobster or Dave and Busters to get a decent pasta dish. AND WAIT, there is even more. Why did I go to Dairy Queen a couple of weeks ago and I couldnt even finish it because the smell of grease made me sick to my stomach. Please also tell me why my house smelled like grease for 3 days... no BS.That being said... they can tear up some queso down here though. Case in point... food here (sans Mexican food) is seriously lacking.

Ew

Is it just me or do Sean Paul and Sean Kingston have the same amount of talent...which would be absolutly none? I'm just saying. All they do is take a hot riddim and go over it. They have no talent in and of themselves... no inherent talent whatsoever. I mean they really bring nothing original to a song, but because they are both kinda bubblegum-ish they do well in the states. I think people in the states just really like these two because they are soooo watered down, BUT the beats they go over are hot. It's the produceres that need the recognition, NOT them.

I guess I just get irritated becasue they take a hot riddim and ride it and the people who KILLED the riddim kinda get no recognition in mainstream American radio (which is another reason mainstream radio is the devil). Seriously, listen to ANY song that Sean Paul has done and listen to that same riddim he used done by Sizzla or Tanya Stephens OR EVEN Ce'cile or Elephant Man.

And see, I can't even say anything about Beenie Man, yeah he gets a lot more play in America than a lot of other dancehall/reggae artists, BUT he actually has talent. He doesn't just ride a riddim... he does something with it.

Point of this post, I was listening to the radio, and they were playing Sean Kingston's 2nd single and Im just like... this dude has no talent. It's just because he sounds very different... he has that cool accent... but duuuuuude you have no talent, with that bubblegum sound. Just because you are Buju Banton's nephew doesnt mean you need to try as well.

Vent over.

Jah Cure

I am really confused as to how this dude has been in prison for almost 10 years and yet he has put out like 4 good albums. WTF is going on with that? I'm just saying. I wonder if they record his voice and then like through it over the riddim. Well no, Imma say no because his songs actually match the riddims (its not like sometimes when the just put a song over a riddim and it soooo doesnt go). So they must like let him listen to the riddim, and then somehow record it and then give it to the producers...or at least that's how I hope it happens. I mean come on, if they have a recording studio up in prison... that is just too much. It's like let him out then already! Retributivist AND consequentialist principles are at odds with this man!

Law School and the Type-Aedness

Yeah, I'm sick of it actually. I do not like Type A people and type A people thrive and breathe here. So sick of it. For instance, this chick who I consider to be my friend but when she gets around "influential" people she just turns into a freaking ass kissing leech and it is not even cool. She will monopolize a conversation, just do anything to strive and it is so sad. There is a way to talk to people without being a freaking ass kissing gunner personn/thing.

And then today, Im in class before it starts and this dude was like, "So I wonder if any of the females in the class slept with any of the partners last night". (We had the first schoolwide Alumni reception aka smoozing session last night). It is just way much. He was saying that because it is true. Like for real. And the tension in that room was ridiculous... and why did one of the women I talked to say she was happy I wasnt trying to kiss her ass and just having a conversation.

I mean there really is a way to make connections without asskissing... it's really annoying and I don't like it.

Best Commercial Ever Revision

OK, a couple of months ago, I said the best commercial ever was that winterfresh one with the corporate dude... I soooooo renege on that statement. Best commercial series ever was the Puma commercials for the Jamaican Track Team for the Athens Olympics. I remember when that commercial came out, especially the one when they were at the dancehall.... sheeeet son.. Hold Attention!!! Hot business. I've enclosed a reproduction for your viewing (I just went to a resume workshop, deal with it)




And why am I starting to get sad again...MAN what I wouldn't do for like one night at the Ritz man... just ONE NIGHT! Like for real, there was nothing like breaking upwards of 10 dudes off in one night man... And no, I'm not a whore, I'm just talking dancing wise. Someone please remind me why I didn't go to Georgetown for law school? Please remind me... man I'm aching for it. Well, I guess that just means that I have to get Three A's and a B (i've given up in Con Law... accept my fate son) and get that job/internship in DC this summer....

Musings of a Procrastinator v.3

Mesh Shorts on men are just about the hottest thing ever in life...in LIFE. Well next to a good cologne. And let me say that mesh shorts on men that you are attractive and men that you KNOW are sexy... not mesh shorts on a dude on the bus who is standing just way to close to you. I say this because... as an ex track runner, I am used to just seeing waaaaay to much of a guys manhood in uniform. But with mesh shorts, you can see just enough without it being straight up nasty but still maintaining that sexy factor.

Please tell me why this chick was just not prepared in class today...it was sooo obvious that she hadn't read. If you arent prepared, it's called let the professor know so you don't waste the classes time. However, this chick tried and then the person next to her passed her some notes on the case and she did a little better... but it was just freaking painful at the beginning. In criminal law that's acceptable...but when the subject matter is as straightforward as contracts... COME ON WITH IT!

Good Half Week in TV

Today was one of the best weeks in TV in a good minute. We started with Desperate Housewives on Sunday. Soooo much better than last season. There was like no drama last season but this season…good drama. Then on Monday we had I Love New York… the best episode ever. There were some attempted assaults, some battery, some spitting, some defamation of character… man it was full of greatness though. Greatness. I love that, two people tried to kill that poontang of a man Tailor Made… for real. But I do need to know what Sister Patterson thinks she is doing. I am just confused as to who/what she thinks she is. Like do you realize that you are over 50…you don't need to be wearing half of the stuff that you do. Also, maybe if you were 50 and had a banging body still, it would be semi OK, but I just can't handle her body and that mini-dress she had on. NOT OK. Also, I am feeling like Mr. Wise could get it…never even realized he was on the show until this episode…but he has that swagger son…hot business.

Continuing on Monday, we had Dancing With The Stars… Helio is soooo cute. I love his cute little smile…didn't like his dance though, but the judges did. I'm just happy I get to look at him for another week. Melanie Brown so deserves all of my props man…like for real. She's a great dancer, Im so impressed with her post baby body… just great. She's my idol, for now at least. Let me just say that I am mad that Cheetah Girl got voted off….highly inappropriate. Why is Marie Osmond still there by the way?

Monday ended off with The Boondocks… THE BEST EPISODE OF THE SEASON BY FAR. I will admit, I thought maybe this season was just garbage, but this was defiantly one of my favorite overall episodes… sooooo funny. My statement that Aaron McGruder has lost the special charm has been redacted.

Tuesday, The Biggest Loser… man, they are doing some cut throat ish here. I'm just trying to figure out how old dude gained 17 pounds and then lost 33 the next… just dang. And why do three people weight over 800 pounds…it bothers me. Also, why do I feel like they pick like semi attractive people so that when they lose the weight and they are like really attractive people are like…. DAAAAANG! It makes the transformation seem like that much better.

Im SURE I'll have even more to say when ANTM comes on tonight son!

My ENTIRE life isnt about music

Although it might seem that way looking at my recent posts. I've been studying more and more, and I am one of those weird people who HAVE to study with music or I cannot focus. I have been in the library, realized I forgot my headphones and home and had to leave...it just would not have been a productive time. Rhapsody is a great thing my friends.

The point of this is, I found another musician to fawn over...Rick Kelly aka Soul Ballet. Man...the stuff is good. It actually reminds me of a couple of Philippe Saisse's albums (Halfway til Dawn and Masques). I GUESS we can call it more pop jazz, but it has elements of electronica mixed in with genuine jazz beats and stuff...it's just greatness.

Those music channels on Comcast/Time Warner Cable are freaking great, they give you such an array of music even within one genre. If I do study at home, that channel is an absolute must.

Why does old school jazz make me think of a fall/winter night in a big city (namely San Francisco, DC, or New York)...like just straight class? Everytime I hear some, I start thinking about 5 star restaurants and hotels and nice clothes and dancing (yeah actual dancing, not gyrations lol). I loves it...if you ever need to be taken on a journey, I suggest you put on some of the old school jazz.

Reflections on "That issue we like to keep under the carpet"

Now, I may be taking a risk by posting this next topic as I was trying to keep this blog as politically correct as possible, but I read a random post that really got me thinking (thanks DC Blogs). One of the ladies from a blog entitled "The View From Here" posted a post called, "Pretty Fly For A White Guy". It wasn't so much what the author wrote but more what the comments were. There were people who were seemingly upset that the author wrote what she did. The post was pretty much about if the author was to date a white man, what kind of white man he would have to be. Now, I am sure (I don't remember if I deleted the post where I discussed the survey done where Asian men and Black women were seen to be the most undesirable demographic) that other races say things like, "If I were to date a black women she would have to be Halle Berry" so what is wrong with this person putting her preferences out there? I'm just saying.

As black women, we are picked over and treated as undesirables so maybe when one of us lays out a checklist for someone else it is an issue? I'm just saying. Is it soo disconcerting that a black women would have some prerequisites for someone else? I am just tired of it...and it so shouldn't be an issue, but it still is.

I kept it pretty PC...I held back a lot, just know that.

What If I Wanted To Break?

Jared Leto is probably the best actor/singer there is. I'm not going to say best actor/singer… but I feel like his "ploy" for a music career was more than successful. Not like freaking Heidi Montag or even Hilary Duff. But seriously, his 30 Seconds to Mars venture is HOT BUSINESS, especially The Kill. The emotion comes across really well.

Anderson Cooper v. Matt Lauer

Battle of the hot anchormen… who wins here? Anderson Cooper (40) or Matt Lauer (49). My initial reaction is to say Matt Lauer simply because he is almost half a century and still is getting it. Anderson Cooper has BODY though, like for real. On that "Planet's in Peril" thing, he was invoking that Bear Grylls sexy thing going on with the tight black shirt. "oh wee"

Man Son Man

This is like what, my third Paul Taylor post in like the month, but I must give props to the new album, "Ladies Choice". At first I wasn't feeling it because half of the CD has singing on it and everyone knows that I do NOT like singing. However, on like the second listen, it really is rather hot. In all honesty. He chose just the right singers to showcase on the album. I think that is a big problem with a lot of instrumentalists that choose to put singers on their records, they chose "who's hot in the streets" NOT whose voice compliments the instrument they play. But Paul Taylor has alto-ish women singers (Regina Belle and Latoya London to name a few) that really complement his soprano sax. I think Boney James usually does a good job of picking the right vocalists too. It has GOT to add an element to the song, they CANNOT take over… or I'll throw the CD in the garbage.

Paul Taylor will always get raves from me though because he is one of the few people who can give me straight up goosebumps in 80 degree weather and whose musicality moves me to the point of tears almost. BUT there was one thing I was extremely disappointed with. Songs 1 and 2, Ladies Choice and I Want To Be Loved (By You) BOTH have the same opening. Like the very same opening. I was really upset by that. Maybe if they had moved the songs a couple of songs apart I would not have picked up on it, but they didn't and I was seriously disappointed.

Lifetime Movie Network

I think I've mentioned this before, but I absolutely love Lifetime Movie Network (LMN). I mean honestly, you can spend an entire Saturday on the couch watching movie after movie after movie. Yes, the acting is quite uninspired and the plots are kinda thin and they do repeat, it is GOOD STUFF. That's part of the reason I like it, you don't have to think, it's nothing to serious about it. Well let me clarify, I do not like the movies where people are dying and the sad ones (they tend to play those on the weekdays though, they play the good one murder/suspense/thriller ones on Saturdays). I just finished watching on yesterday that was 3:30 minutes of straight goodness. Loved it! It was called 1^st to Die. It really kinda didn't make sense, but it did in an odd ball sort of way.

Copious Amounts of Swag

What exactly is swagger? Urban dictionary defines swagger as, "how one presents oneself to the world. An appearance of self confidence". I'm inclined to agree with this definition with one caveat. You can think you have swagger and soooo not have it. Just because you are self confident does NOT mean that you have swag. I mean honestly.

It really bothers me when people are like, "I have all the swag in the world" and blah blah blah. No son, you don't. I promise. Swag to me is when you are confident and there is NO NEED TO BRAG ABOUT HOW GOOD YOU ARE. When you know what's up and everyone else does as well. It is an unspoken truth. Just because you think you are cute (this goes for men and women) does not mean that you have swag... you just seem arrogant (especially if you think you are cute and you really aren't).

For instance, there is this dude in my class...not my section, but my class of 450 who has sooo much swag it is ridiculous. I wouldn't even be ordinarily attracted to him, like if I saw him in a club I wouldn't give him a second glance. BUT BUT, there is just something about him that exudes confidence, I mean it almost oozes out of his pores and that is sooo attractive. It's not even like he is cocky with it because he isn't. But it is something...oh my gracious. It's kinda like the Denzel Washington thing...I'm not sure he is even all that attractive but the swag factor takes him to crazy places man.... woooeee.

But the point of this post was just to express that having a lot of self confidence to the point where you are on your jock a bit too hard IS NOT SWAG. It just makes you look stuck up, egotistical, and semi stupid for trying to portray yourself in that manner. Thanks in advance.

Musings of a Procrastinator v. 2

I love NY 2 is boring...just straight up boring and straight up scripted. I don't even know why I keep watching it. Maybe because I just need to fill my DVR up with more random nonsense that is VH1. I mean the dudes aren't event that cute, and the cute ones don't even get any TV time. Sooooo bored with it.

Dancing with the Stars...the dancers do keep getting better every year but I have a bit of an issue. The two best female dancers are/were in girl bands. And what do girl bands do???? They DANCE. I mean they do have a significant advantage over some of the others, they work on choreography all the time.

Why did Pepa from Salt and Pepa do that do her face? I mean seriously, don't ever get plastic surgery and not even look like the same person. That is problematic to me.

Why do some of the Jena 6 boys allegedly have a myspace video out where they are "making it rain on dem hoes" with all their money? I haven't seen it but I have heard from numerous people that it is out there. I mean WTF...don't use this as a platform to get famous and parade yourself around. Take your behind in the house or something and stay there. I was going to buy a tee shirt to support, but if that's what your doing with it...soooo not understanding the point and severity of what is going on...naw son I'm straight. Spend it on someone who cares.

Now THIS is what I'm talking about

I was soooo excitable this morning when I woke up and heard rain... but I just about fell out when I went outside. There was like zero humidity...got in my car and the thermometer said 48 degrees...THIS IS WHAT FALL IS. It is a beautiful thing, just loving it. Granted, tomorrow it will probably be 80 degrees but whatever, today completely made my month. I mean I was soooo happy walking the 0.8 miles from school to the bus today. The wind was crazy blowing my hair and ish and I just had to stop and take it all in.

Growing up in the Bay Area spoils you man, seriously. We don't have seasons...it's like 63 degrees average every month...it really is a beautiful thing. Yes yes, I complain about how I don't like the Bay Area because it's kinda boring and there is a serious lack of educated black men there, BUT man...the whether will win my heart for ever. I don't know if I wanna move back, but man... I have been spoiled. I seriously don't believe that it should be 89 degrees in the last month of October, that really seems unnatural to me. But eh, it is what it is right?

And yes, I am a big fan of the ellipse... it makes the writing flow much easier. The stream of thought style is so much easier to pull off this way.

Gratuitous Displays of Affection

I am not or have I ever been nor will I ever be one for Displays of Affection. Yes, most people don't like to see other people straight making out in public, but I have issues even deeper than that. I absolutely HATE hugging people. The only people I hug on the regular are my mom, dad, and my boyfriend. Is that weird?

It seems today that the hugging on greeting is starting to equal a handshake...like its customary or something. I really don't like having to tell people that I don't like to hug, because it makes it seem like there is something wrong with me. I don't think there is anything wrong with me, I just only hug when I mean it. Like, I'm not going to hug you and I don't even really like you....it's soooo awkward for me. And it makes me seems socially awkward if I'm in a group of people and everyone is taking turns hugging and I'm just standing there waiting until it is over because everyone knows I don't do that.

It's a little better with dudes, but I still am mad uncomfortable with it...unless it's that sideways hug around the waist kinda thing. But I really don't like straight on hugging people....so uncomfy man. Totally uncomfy.

And it's weird, I don't have a problem shaking hands and I'm not totally OCD about the germage issue either. I just believe that the hug has become just so trivial today, just commonplace. It's really not even special anymore.

I don't know what made me think of that, but... that's how I feel... I obviously needed to vent. Vent over.

Music Battle: Peter White v. Ken Navarro

Ok, so these are my two favorite jazz guitarists out there. They both play the nylon string acoustic guitar, yet they have two very different sounds. Loving them both though. The point of this post is just to show how much of a person's soul is put into the music/musicality and production. I mean, you can't just know how to play a musical instrument, I really has to be an extension of you. And I am sorry that I must harp on this person, but Kenny G. is a prime example. I feel like he knows how to play the sax, BUT he puts no feeling into it. He is not one with his instrument in my opinion. He just seems to put notes out there. But then again, I think a lot of his issue is his production and he seriously lacks musicality.

But back to the lecture at hand...Ken Navarro and Peter White both play from the soul and both sound so different to me. I guess it is the way they interpret the music and put certain sounds together. I love the way Ken Navarro tends to be kinda light and airey and plays from the higher registers and Peter White tends to be more in the lower registers with more of a slow haunting thump thumpness. (yes, I am aware it is not a word...no judgement thanks). But it is the same instrument...they just take it different places with that soul...that inner spirit. It really is a beautiful thing.

So since this is a versus post, I am going to have to go with Peter White...for the Nylon String Guitar Battle

Sidenote: Is it not a beautiful thing when two of your favorite artists get together and play? My favorite pianist and my favorite saxophonist (Keiko Matsui and Paul Taylor) used to play together. Better yet, Paul Taylor was Keiko Matsui's saxophonist, which probably explains why I like a lot of her music. The mix of the two styles is just superb...words cant even describe it.

Summer's End

I believe I have a post here somewhere giving praise to that which is known as Paul Taylor. But COME ON! He has done it yet again. YET AGAIN. Yes, I know that the Ladies Choice album came out in May, but I am a bit late as Rhapsody does not have it yet which is inappropriate in and of itself, but that is neither here nor there.

The point of this is to say that the track Summer's End is hot business. I mean serious "hot fyah". I usually am not a fan of the Soprano Sax, but Summer's End makes Soprano Sax hot where as Kenny G. really did take that fire away. He completely like watered that ish down. If there are any Kenny G. fans I am offending, I do apologize, but it is what it is. Or maybe it is Kenny G.'s lack of production that just makes his music sound so blah blah bubblegum to me. But somehow, all that is Paul Taylor puts that soul and feeling back into the Soprano Sax, seriously. It is really something when it's like 80 degrees outside, but you turn that track on and get chills. Can you do that Sir Kenny G.? I'm just asking.

Joe Jamail is Freaking Pimp

I am sooo proud I study in his pavilion every day. How during a deposition do you call someone "fat boy" AND "dumb son of a bitch" and still retain your credibility. Straight hotness.

Musings of a Procrastinator

So, I am procrastinating studying. Actually no I'm not, let us back that up a little bit. I am done with my homework (yes in law school you have homework again like in high school... it's not like college where all you really had to do was "reading"), but I could be getting even farther ahead but I think I deserve a break.



I just would like to comment on a few things that have been bothering me of late.



Dancing with the Stars



I really do need to know what's up with Floyd Mayweather though.. so not the cuteness.



I Love New York 2



I mean, the chick really wasn't the nicest looking person to look at from the beginning, BUT now, she is just all kinds of awful. Please tell me why she decided it was appropriate to get like JJ boobs on a small ass frame like hers. You look like a circus freak and Imma need to you stop that immediatly.



And why are the guys not as attractive as last season. Like for real. I mean, Pretty is kinda hot. Tailor-made has potential , and Wolf would be hot business if he cleaned himself up, but that about does it for me. Like almost all the dudes were hot on there last season... I guess cute guys have other places to be. Dang, they could at least pretend to like NY so I could have the pleasure of looking at them once a week.



And why is the little person that is on there who as called himself "Midget Mac" so damn volitile. It's actually quite frightning really.



Law School

Why is my favorite class the class I thought I was going to hate? Criminal Law gets it man. Seriously I love my teacher! That litte short guy puts fear into the heart of many...loves it.

So UT is supposed to be all laid back and chill and facially it is, but why are people sooooooo competetive. Yes yes, I am aware that we are graded against each other (actually technically we aren't because we don't have class rankings but then we do, but whatever) but like...why are you worried about how much studying I'm doing? Why are you worried about how much time I spent in the library. Settle down and worry about yourself, really.

On a related note, going to law school with a whole heap of Type A personalities has made me realize just how laid back and chill I am...like for real. Like I realize I am competing with my classmates, but I just want to get the grades that I am looking for, it doesnt matter what the person sitting next to me got. Honestly. AND AND there's more...not only does it make me realize how laid back I am, it has kinda made me realize how passive I am. I really don't think I'd make a good big firm corporate lawyer simply because I am not arrogant. I say this in a good way, I think to be a good lawyer, you have to have a certain arrogance and Im not sure I could ever get it. Boo hoo.

Musings

Man, Perez Hilton on Celebrity Rap Superstar is straight comedy. OH MY GOSH. He said "I run my thing through ya hootas"!!! LOLOLOL

Why do people with small boobies think that it is ok for them not to wear chesticle support? I am just saying.

Randomness that is Law School: Episode 2

So basically I'm feeling like this. There's this chick that sits across from me in one of my classes and she is so arrogant and not feeling her. Everytime she says something I wanna through my pencil at her or if I'm drinking soda, I would love to hurl soda in her face.



On the same note, theres a chick that smells like icing, spit, and must all mixed into one and it is quite distracting.

Randomness that is Law School: Episode 1

Someone please tell me why my Constitutional Law book refer to slavery as "the slavery controversy"? I mean really. Controversy though? Yeah there were two sides fighting blah blah blah... but I am a little bothered that they referred to it as a controversy. Dumbing it down much?

I wrote a facebook post about how people really just refuse to wash their hands when they leave the restroom... should I post it here?

I absolutly love my Crim Law teacher. Yeah he has a unique way of teaching but whatever, get with it. Point being, my favorite quote came from him on Monday..."Don't have gratuitious shows of erudtion. It's not cool".

The 4th and 6th floors of the library smell like Crayola crayons. Like straight up Kindergarten.

I am loving this season called OCI... 20-something men in suits is freaking great. I mean seriously. Loving it.

This is just like high school because I have a Section crush...shameful I know. I can have a crush, I won't act on it though. I can't help it if ole dude looks like Chris Noth... is that my fault?

There is more to come, BUT I must return to reading about this so called slavery controversy.

Biggest Loser: 9/25

I am not mad that Carolin Rhea is not there anymore... what IM mad at is that they tried to get a replacement host that kinda looks like her. Like people aren't going to realize this random chick is not Caroline Rhea... what IS that?

That Bryan dude has some potential. I can't wait until the end and they show the people all slimmed down. He is going fizzine!

Dancing with the Stars: Week 1

I can't even put dates in the titles now that they wanted to take up half a week with the show. LOL. I honestly do think it is a bit much. Granted, I understand why they did it.. two hours is a bit long to stay up to watch the dancers dance, so I'm sure they were losing watchers half way through the show. But whatever. Lets get to the good part.

Of course my favorite dancer was Cheetah Girl Sabrina and her cutie of a partner. The dance was really just hot except for that lil hip hop part they threw in. It woulda been a 10 without that. They really were getting it, I was majorly impressed. I want her to win. And by the way, WHEN did she gain all that weight? I don't remember her being that big.

Second favorite was Helio. Granted, before Tuesday I had no idea who Helio was... but I know now. He's a cutie. (Isn't that unfortunate that I grade how I like the people on how cute they are, just kidding). So feeling his dance though. Very very smooth.

Mel B... what can I say. I am just so impressed with her body right about now for a couple of reasons. You just had a baby and you're body is banging now, and I don't really remember her looking like in the Spice Girls. Her stylists really helped her out. On to the dance, it was eh to me... it didnt do anything for me but I didn't totally hate it. Her partner is the ever hot Maxim so I HAVE to vote for her to keep him on there.

Honestly, I don't remember anyone else... except I felt sorry for Wayne Newton because he looked like he was trying to hard, but he was just soooo tired. Floyd Mayweather was just all kinds of awful. What was up with those facial expressions and all the aggression? Calm it down my friend. And I love how the judges were like, "You have a natural rhythm". LOL. He's a black man... come now. But that doesnt mean he can dance. You can have rhythm and still be an awful dancer. Mark Cuban... I just wanna know why he has to have a hip replacement at 49... I'm concerned. He is actually slightly hot too... I have issues I know. No judgement please. Oh yeah, Jane Seymore, getting it at 56! I wanna be like that. Body on point too...

All in all, going for Sabrina and Helio... those were the only ones I wanted to watch the performances twice. Should be a good season.

Music Confessional

As I sit here an wait for Contracts to start, I felt there is no better time to profess my love for all the is Paul Taylor and Imogen Heap. Two very different music genres, very well aware of that fact, but while I've been studying, they seem to be the only two who can really keep me focused. Actually, more to come on this, I think I wanna write about Dancing With The Stars before I forget about it.

Extra Long Hiatus

So... been in Law School for a month now and I've already let the blog slip... oh well. It is what it is... This IS the first time that I have had some down time to write, actually its not even down time because I planned on studying for Contracts but I just said eff it this morning. I really just don't feel like it.

Now even though I've only been in school for a month... why am I changing in like unacceptable ways? Someone please inform me why? Why am I actually being social? I havent been social since like middle school. I guess being so focused on track and school at the same time kinda forced my social life to suffer in high school and college.

Anyhoo... So I'm playing flag football (killing at that if I may add) and I'm trying to get involved in my society as much as I can (just saying society kinda makes it obvious what law school I go to huh). I am really just amazaed at myself cuz in college I woulda said... "man eff that ish... freaking society ish, naw I'm straight". Gimme a pat on the back.

So this is kinda like the introduction post that I made a little over a year ago on this blog, but not so much. Im going to still comment on current event and on TV, but I think imma be a little more politically correct and not as harsh. We would not want any future employers reneging offers because I was too harsh on an episode of Dancing with the Stars now would we?

I'm going to also comment on here about law school because honestly, I don't see the point of those little notes on facebook... I am simply saying.

Best Commercial Ever

I LOVE this commercial, i actually think this is one of my favorite commercials ever. I love how the dude looks like some uptight corporate businessman/lawyer and then goes stripper. Hilarious.

Lifetime Movies are Evil

I can feel it, I think today is going to be wasted watching Lifetime made for TV movies. It is too damn hot to do anything but lay on my back on the floor (the floor is actually cooler than my couch) and watch that television. Man school needs to start because I am massivly bored.

Baltimore Club will never die

See, this here is why I still love B'more Club Music....

Black Sheep



I mean come ONNNNN!

Even Stevens WTF??!?!?!?!?!?!?

Ok, so this may sound a little odd, but I just got done watching Disturbia and Shia LaBeouf might could kinda get it. I am freaking sorry.... I was so feeling that first kissing scene oooooh weeee. It was kinda hot. Usually I am grossed out by fake kissing scenes but that ish was freaking hawt, maybe because it obviously wasnt fake. See, I need to stop. It's kinda wierd though because I remember him from as little ass Even Stevens guy. But hey, he's 21... through me a freaking bone here.

Conclusion: If they still do "Best Kiss" for MTV video awards this ish needs to win... I haven't seen one better. Yes, there have been sweeter kisses, or more emotional kisses, but that was one of the hottest I've ever scene. Woooow.

Newsflash:

I now think I am fat... I am struggling to fit in the size 4's... this is sooooo not hot. From when my parents leave until the first day of orientation imma stay in the gym so I do not have to jump and struggle to get in the 4's. "Just buy a size six" you might say. Man eff that, I bought all my clothes in a size 4 and that's where I'm staying.

DAAAAAANG

MMMM...Snu Snu

That was the best futurama episode ever. Snu Snu though? Who comes up with those things?

Speaking of snu snu... I'm in Austin and my boyfriend isn't. Tear tear.

Specimen

Dude, I'm sorry... as much as I don't like Danny from SYTYCD... I must admit, he is a prime specimen if I've ever seen one. I mean seriously... did you SEE his freaking body while he was dancing muscles and ish just rippling. I guess being a track athlete I look at bodies a bit differently. Most people would look at his body and say he looks good... but me... I see a 400/400 hurdlers body there. I mean seriously, if he had any speed combined with his obvious strength, he would be a BEAST!

Also, I was really feeling Mia's piece but honestly, I think what made the piece what it was was the song. Imogen Heap is really amazing... but what's funny, I've never really liked any of her songs UNTIL I hear/see them interpreted through music.

Man v. Wild=Grossness

I had a post a while back where I proclaimed my love for Man v. Wild and all that is Bear Grylls. However, with this new season of Man v. Wild.... my feelings are changing. This show is kinda grossing me out.

In the first episode, Bear is in the desert and he's overheating so he decided to pee on shirt and wear it as a head cooler. Yeah, when this happened, it oddly enough didn't gross me out. However, I was LOST when dude peed in his canteen and drank that ish this season. Yeah I know he didn't want to die of thirst... but dang his pee. And why did they add all kinds of gulping sound effects?

And they've turned him into a raw meat eater too. Before, he used to find food and cook it... now Bear'll just find a rabbit or dear or something, slice him of a piece of meet and just go at it. Blood and ish all over his face.

Just wow.

WTF x978

Someone please tell me why everytime I go out with one of my friends.... let us call her Geanne, something always goes awry? Please let me know? This is going to be short and sweet. Went to a club with my friend and her friends. One of the dudes was mad drunk and wanted to go home. Geanne said she would take him home. On the way home, pass by a whole bunch of volatile Asian men and hear a gun shot. Keep driving... hear a second gun shot. I proceed to get under the dashboard (yeah you read that, I snatched that seatbelt off so fast and was under there in a quickness) Geanne screams "Ew dude threw up". I think she's talking about person that caught that bullet... no no... She's talking about the em-effer who is behind me. Threw up all over himself. I freak out and somehow hit her car shift into neutral and she starts screaming and ish and is yelling and me while....man it was just BAD. So then we get away from the shooting.... but then i hear all this gurgling and dude throws all kinds of up but this time all over hear cloth seats.

Some more happened but it's not important.

What I need to know is what would compel someone to drink so much that they get boo boo faced like that? Come ON!!!!!

The N

Yes yes...it is time that I step up on my soapbox once again and proclaim my love/hate relationship with the TV station known as "Noggin/The N".

A couple of years ago, when this channel first surfaced... I loved it mainly because of "DeGrassi...The Next Generation". Now they network has a myriad of shows about sex, drugs, and all kind of other ish. Yeah, what's the problem you may ask. The problem is that this network's demographics are pre-teens/teenagers with the occasional young adult such as myself. They aim this ish at teenagers which is not OK.

I don't so much have a problem with DeGrassi because honestly, most of the stuff they talk about on there is real and they don't so much focus on sex and drugs and drinking. Yes, they may have the occasional episode, but I believe it's necessary because it is a part of teenaged life. Now this new show called, "The Best Years" is not OK*. It's about this group of college students which reminds me of soft porn. Once again, this would not be a problem but it is right after Degrassi... so people are naturally going to watch it. Honestly, that show on MTV like 8 years ago called "Undressed" had more dignity than this show... it called itself what it was... lightweight porn for teens (and it was on at 11... a more appropriate time, not 8 damn 30).

And what, there was this commercial on last week (didn't see it on this week so I think some one may have complained and they took it off) where there's this dude from Degrassi who gets out of the car and then this girl from "South of Nowhere" tongues him down and then he turns around and this girl from "Best Years" tongues him down as well and then all three of them head down to the dance floor and proceed to bump each ways reminiscent of sex with dude in the middle (yeah I think they were supposed to be dancing but they were just all off beat and ish, it looked awful).

It just seems to me that that young teen generation is about nothing but sex. Yes, it has always been prevalent but just broadcasting it seems really weird to me. The N's tagline is, "It goes there"... but seriously, The Best Years is just dumb.

And no I'm not just talking out of my ass because I do watch DeGrassi... faithfully, but then again I am 23 and have been watching it since Junior year of high school when they were in middle school and the only thing they had to worry about was looking up porn on the computer (great episode by the way).

I'm not exactly sure how to feel about "South of Nowhere". The two black guys in it are cute, so I can't really complain.

All and all... the N lost a couple of points with me for "Best Years". Yeah, I'm sure all of the pre-pubescent horny teens love it, but come ON now. Be real man... be freaking rea.


* Not to mention COMPLETELY inaccurate. A freshman would never be a captain of a college basketball team regardless of how good they are. If dude is such a star, he would NOT be sharing a dorm room with "regular" people. And why are those people always hanging out at that bar? Hello... underage drinking much?

Piles

Who the hell is this Piles person? Just extra grimey with no rhyming skills. How did you get a record deal anyway? I was watching Making the Band 4 and when that went off, they did that little music preview thing and he has some song out with him and T-Pain. It was just ew. There was this part when this chick is bending over the sink and cleaning and he sneaks up to her and grabs her from her behind. Why did they chick even look slightly disgusted when she turned around. I think she was supposed to look surprised maybe.... she looked mad disgusted. lol. great.

My How You've Grown

OK, so I just got back from seeing "Harry Potter: Order of the Phoenix" and all I have to say it.....grrrrreat. How dare unnamed news paper give it a 2.5 stars. What the freak ever. I will write more on this when I am a bit more coherent. What I will say is it is amazing to see how the actors have grown up. Rupert Grint aka Ron has grown into quite a handsome young man in a wierd/off kinda way. How dare he be kinda built. Seamus' jawline was a bit manly...thus majorly disturbing. Neville wanted to get all tall and ish. Harry, still short as ever, but the face was totally different...not the young chubby face we are used to...

Very wow. At least Hermione looked the same.

Kenny Loggins and Michael McDonald...

...are quite possibly the best "blue eyed soul" artists out there (yeah, I'm pretty sure that neither of them have blue eyes, but that is neither here nor there).



And they are live... no voice modification or NOTHING. Straight up pure talent.

Breakdown O' The Year

Rock's breakdown on Hell's Kitchen was possibly one of the best documented mental breakdowns ever in life. I had to watch it twice it was so good. WHAT IS SO ORIGINAL ABOUT SOME CRAB AND LOBSTER BISQUE!!!!!! lol

That is all.

Actually no it isn't... why did the girl that got eliminated look like that? She look like Corpse Bride or something. I think she probably got so stressed she stopped eating herself.


NOW that is all.

Charm School Reunion

First, let me say that as much as I like Monique and as much as I believe that she is a genuine person... I do believe she was putting on just a little bit. Second, WTF is wrong with these girls? I mean seriously... I saw no change in any of them except Saaphyri and Leiline... Saaphyri wanted that money so bad she figured she had to change. Let's go down the list:

Toastie: Uh did she even say anything?

Brooke: Can you say looney? I mean she is seriously a disgrace to women everywhere. I hope she doesn't think she's classy because that was the trashiest ish I have ever seen in my life. And why was she looking all hateful when they gave Leiline 10,000 dollars? I mean I know she didn't think she was going to get it after the way she acted... it's called Charm School for a reason...

Courtney: How dumb can you be? How is someone going to give you a entertainment deal and then you make a joke about them? Dumbest thing ever in life.

Saaphyri: Weave was much better than the finale. I actually think she did change, but stayed who she is at the core which is a good thing. I don't care what

Larissa: Ole fake @$$ New York. No, she can't even be classified as a New York because New York's whole villain persona is an act. Larissa is just straight up like that... like she's entitled to something. Sit down and learn how to talk... thanks. And I'm mad that her mom was backing the way that she was acting up. Not even OK.

Shay: Yeah... I still don't like her. I don't care. And I hate to say this, but I agree with Larissa, Shay was trying to act like she had nothing to do with the picture incident. Come on NOW.

Becky: She's funny. No, I'm still not laughing with her... I'm laughing AT her.

Shatar: Simply tripping... she really is in another world....Disney quite possibly.

Another Again

This song by John Legend is just wow... I had never really listened to the words, but the words are wow. They make me tear up just listening to them because the words are so real.

"She's not the best but she's all that I know"?? My goodness if that doesn't just tear at your heart.

I have no earthly idea why I've been so emotional this past week... actually I do, but that's neither here nor there.

Wait wait, there's more... how about Mellosmooth... I just relistened to that after a couple of years and oh my gracious if that doesn't make you feel good... there is something wrong with your inner plumbing.

The truth in The Truth About Cats and Dogs

So I first saw this movie when it came out (on HBO of course) and I liked it, I thought I was cute. Yeah, I was in like 7th grade and really didn't understand that this movie has sooo much truth in it. I was watching last night and even though it was a comedy I was moved by it. Probably because the main character reminded me of myself in sooooo many ways. Low self-esteem is a biotch.. seriously though.

But my absolute favorite part of the movie... can anyone guess? The part where they were talking on the phone all night (sans the phone relations part). She was fully able to be herself without holding back because dude couldnt see what she looked like. It's so sad because I feel like that at times...not because I don't think Im attractive, but because I'm not what society tells people is attractive so sometimes that gets drilled into my head. But anyway... that part just really kind touched me.

Other than that, the movie kinda irked me cuz dude was wierd.

Making the Band 4: 07/03/07

Is it just me, or do shows that feature men do better than shows that feature women? Ok I guess it is just me because I am watching this show simply because they are dudes... not because there are any cute guys because there aren't, but because there is bound to be less drama.

So far, there are some guys who can sing (D'Angelo) and then there are some guys that think that doing a couple of runs with vibrato means you can sing (most of the other guys). Guess what, it doesn't. I makes you look awful.

And someone PLEASE tell me why everytime Puffy (I refuse to call him Diddy... you started out as Puffy, Imma call you Puffy) walks in, they do this dramatic slow down ish? You are not that special. You cheated on your wife while she was 2 4 month olds at home with one THE trashiest looking female member of "your band" like 5 months after you proclaimed in Essence that you were a changed man? You are ish dude. But whatever... main point being, the slowing down ish is not necessary and extremely egotistical because we know he be in on the editing part telling them to do this because I know no one else did that ish but him. Egotistical bastard.

But I like your show, not because it's yours though...

Charm School Finale

Was anybody other than me surprised by the finale of Charm School? They were all crying and snotting... I actually think this show turned into something other than trying to get on TV for some of the girls. I was surprised. I mean all of them were snotting and carrying on. For a slight moment, they left me with a some warm feelings inside... but then I was like HOLD UP. This is Charm School, it's not even that serious.

I was happy Shay was not in the running. She wanted to act like the picture scandal was not her fault and she was all upset because they "turned on her". Trick you were acting like the third biggest b-word in that house (next to Larissa and Brooke) let's be real with out lives. You got what you deserved.

I am not sure what to think about the ending though. Yes Saaphyri deserved and needed the money and for that I am happy she won. BUT, based on what the show was supposed to be about, Leiline shoulda won. To me, Leiline definatly grew the most out of everyone. But then again, Saaphyri didn't have a home and stuff and they were trying to help her out... but I still feel like she didn't change at all.

All in all, I take back everything I said about this show before I watched it. It actually did have a good premise and turned out to be much better than Flavor of Love because it wasn't focused on shaking the goodies. However, I think Monique started feeling herself a little bit too much in that headmistress role. I think she really started believing that mess.

How You Gon' Rip It Like THIS Son??????

How you gonna rip it like this son?! How you gonna rip it like that son! I don't play that, because it's action. I'm talking bah bah bah Cause I'm black son. I'm the black sheep, the real black sheep! Dood-le dood-le doodle-doo. Talkin bout ungh! (proceeds to do the Kid N Play with himself)
- Dave Chappelle

How can you NOT be a fan of someone that writes that? I mean seriously?

I have also come to the conclusion that the second season of Chappelle's Show was indeed better than the first season. The first season was good much in the same way Shrek was good. You've never seen anything like it so you are going to be enthralled by it. However, the second had better content.

Spaghetti Spaghetti, rippin it up, rippin it up....that is all

SYTYCD 06/28

So not feeling Danny... why was he hysterically laughing when he found out he was in the bottom three? Like he wasn't supposed to be there or something. Cocky SOB. And why were his pants so freaking tight. Made me very uncomfortable.

I must say Jessie KILLED that. That was seriously impressive. I didn't know that that was her style of dance. The moves were going with the music... just hot. She is my second favorite female dancer next to Sabra. And her dance with Pasha was great... better than fake Bette Midler.

Sarah is impressive to. I like her. I can't really say anything else, but it was good.

Anya was awful. She can't really help it though since she is a ballroom dancer. I mean what was she supposed to do?

Lauren coulda done more. To me she just kinda stood there in her little bustier thing.

Jesus was good and Neil was good. But they both kept spinning a bit much for me.

Cedric needed to be in the bottom, but hey, that speech got people voting. Is it safe to say that he may be the equivalent of Sanjaya? No not quite because Cedric really does have talent.

The judges are ridiculous.... Jessie was the best. They are ridiculous. Anya and Lauren were BOTH much worse than her. WTF? Wierd she actually looks like Jaime Pressley. I am so over this dumb ass show. And they let Jesus go. WTF? WTFF (freaking). This show is absolutley stupid. And what did they beep out that he said? Extra awkward. ABSOLUTLY RIDICULOUS

Randomness

I cannot stand when people walk with their hands down. I've already said this in a previous post, but I just had to revisit. That signals a serious lack of confidence in my honest opinion. It's one thing not to acknowledge someone that you know that is passing your direction, but it is completly another to just constantly walk with your head down. I think that says that you arent confident enough in yourself to let people see you... and it is really uncute. Yeah, I said uncute.

Another thing I can't stand... the way it smells in the hospital section of where I work. It does NOT smell sanitary. Most hospitals have sort of a sterile smell to them... a clean and crisp lysol-ish smell. No noo.. Not where I work. It smells like rotten meat with some kinda nasty scent over it. Everytime I go to the specific level... I almost gag. If I knew how to throw up (I havent thrown up since I was 3 so I think it is safe to say that I don't know how) I am sure I would. Very not-appealing.

Isn't it kinda silly that the only thing I have time to write about anymore is So You Think You Can Dance? I mean really. Maybe this means I am getting tired of this whole blog thing?

SYTYCD 06/27

Oh my goodness! Poor Pasha. What in the world was that? I mean seriously.... why did they choose that no dancing red head to dance with him? He couldn't even lift her up. It was just soooo awkward. Pasha did good... but it was just extra weird. Why did Debbie Allen say he was dancing with Bette Midler. Very wow. Pasha was "daring"... he had to be to pick her up (nothing against chunkier people... but she was kinda bigger than him).

Sarah and Jesus: I LIKE Jesus! No matter what style he does he GETS IT. I mean come on, for the "krumping" he looked a straight cholo. LOL. Had the attitude and everything. Sarah was good too. I think the music had a lot to do with it.

Cedric and Shauna: I will admit, it hurt me too much to see this dance. Although I do like his little speech he gave at the end. I think his main problem is that he's really tall and lanky and can't really control his movement (which is why his style looks so cool). And Shauna is rather good. Mary didn't have to be so harsh though.

Lacey and Kameron: NOT FEELING them. Yeah there dance was good. But just because you are effing behind closed doors doesn't mean the world needs to know about it.

Danny and Anya: I actually didn't like it. I felt no emotion. It looked like hip-hop by the numbers.

Dominic and Sabra: They are good. I mean seriously... she started dancing 4 years ago and he has had no "formal" training and the killed that. Dominic even had the hip action and everything

Hok and Jaime: GREAT. My favorite for the night by far. Jaime is very talented the movement she went through at the beginning was amazing. I'm talking about the upper body movement. It looked like she was kinda pop/locking softly very nice. The arm thing got me... woooo. So impressed by her. And we all now I like Hok... he used some of his moves but still did very good on the other movement. Music was perfect too.

Lauren and Neil: It was solid. But honestly, it didn't blow me away or anything. I can't even think of anything to really write about it.

Who SHOULD be in the bottom 3: Cedric/Shauna (lets be real)...Lauren and Neil...Danny and Anya.

If Sabra and/or Dominic goes home tomorrow...Im not watching anymore and I mean it.