Why I Love My Boyfriend

Reasons 1-5 why I love my boyfriend...

5. He is a cutie and has the most gorgeous eyes I have ever seen on a black man... they're green with long, thick eyelashes.
4. He forgives me, even when I do silly/immature stuff... putting up with me has got to be difficult, even after 3 and a half years.
3. He supports me in my law school application endeavors, even though I know he doesn't want me to leave.
2. He lets me be me and doesn't judge me for anything I do or say... all in all...he let's me be me.
1. He calls me beautiful... even when I am sick and just coughed up some nasty looking yellow stuff.

Even though he makes me livid sometimes and I can't stand him others... all in all, I love him dearly. He makes me feel things, and am not really a touchy/feeley type person. A wise person told me that it is not about the perfect person, it is about finding someone who you can be yourself with and with whose flaws you can accept. And even though we are so different viscerally, my love for him "transcends" that. I loves you babe!

Enough of the lovefest....I was just feeling really emotional for some odd reason.

215

Cutthroatedness Man!

DAMN! Rich white chicks are gangsta man! Just straight up and down dirty style. I was watching, "The Hills" on MTV last night (there was nothing on and it amazes me how silly young rich white chicks are) and these chicks are the most backstabbingest tricks I have ever seen! OK, so on this episode, the main character and her best friend just got into a really big fight and they are on the reconcile. Cut to a scenes of the main characters best friend and her other best friend having lunch and talking about the boy that the main character really likes. Turns out that the other best friend kinda wants to hook up with the dude too, so the best friend invites him to the other best friends birthday party. So, cut to a scene of these white girls at the birthday party eating and drinking and the main character is getting all sentimental over the girls birthday and everything and even gives her a necklace with real diamonds in them (note, these chicks are like 21). So then, at the table with the main character, her two best friends start whispering about the dude she likes and they go to the bathroom and the one best friend tells the other that she should hook up with him that night. Cut to a scene of the two best friends and a boyfriend and the guy the main character wants to hook up with and they cut out of the club real fast and leave the main character just there wondering where everyone went. Cut to another scene and the main character is talking with her co-worker and says that the other best friend called her at like 2am and asked if she minded if she hooked up with her crush. WTF is that??? That is soooooo dirty dude! That is exactly why I am not the fondest of females.... GAAA DOG!

American Idol: 2/27

Sooooo.... here we go... my take on the men's round..

AJ Tabaldo: I actually think he was pretty good. He started off kinda harsh, but once he did that little spin turn, he came into his own. He has cute dance moves and a nice smile. He's staying.

Blake Lewis: So, I loved this one. Probably my favorite. Or is it because he sang one of my favorite songs of 1997... Virtual Insanity! I liked that little part he did in the middle with the beatboxing and scatting... very nice. Although he wasn't the best singer to me, he was the best performer... hands down. He's staying.

Brandon Rogers: Maybe I just like black men, but no matter how bad he did, I still want him to stay... but he is probably going home. Yes, he has a very strong and soulful voice, but he sang "Time After Time". I know it was dedication week, but come on guy! Are you serious, why would you sing that in the second week. You can't make an impact with that! He's going home.

Chris Richardson: OK. Honestly, the first time I heard it, I did not like it. To me, he just talks with a little bit of melody... much like Ciara or Janet Jackson or someone like that. He did some Jason Mraz song and it sounded awful to me, but the judges liked it and the crowd liked it. I think it was because much like Blake, he performed the song better than any of the others. But I really don't think he can sing... much in the same way that I don't think Justin Timberlake can sing, but whatever. He's staying.

Chris Sligh: Yeah, I don't like him so much now. At the beginning, he was my favorite. Maybe because in the auditions he sang that Seal song and in my opinion killed it in a good way. His voice is good, but he bores me. Yes, I understand that he has a different style, but he bores me. I think people will like his curly mop, so he is staying.

Jared Cotter: Uh, I don't really know what to feel about this guy. His eyebrows bother me immensely, they are just tooo big, and the sad thing is, it looks like he has tried to shape them too!lol. Back to his singing. I don't too much like him, maybe it is the way he always looks in the camera. His voice is cool.. but it's blah to me. Honestly, I don't even remember what he sang. But the little white girls will think he's cute so he's staying.

Nicholas Pedro: I don't even remember him from last week, but this week. I liked him, hey, I even remember what he sang! He did "Fever" justice with his smoky voice. I liked him a lot. BUT like Simon said, "I think we have a CharisMER issue here". I don't know if a lot of people are going to vote for him.

Phil Stacey: Yeah, I don't too much like him either, although I can say he has really pretty eyes. As for his singing, he has a good voice, and he is a performer, but I just don't like him. He's staying though.

Sanjaya Malakar: DUDE, I felt so sorry for this guy. He did so bad, I felt embarrassed for him man. I could tell when he walked his little thin frame out there that it just was not going to go well. Yeah, his outfit with the had was nice, but that's about it. He was so quite, I couldn't even hear him. It didn't even sound like he was singing. He has no presence whatsoever. Yes he is young, but that is really no excuse man. He should be going home, but I think the little white girls are going to vote for him, not because they think he's cute, but because they can relate to him.

Sundance Head: Sundance got it last night man. Yeah, I remembered him from last week and the auditions, BUT in a bad way. Yesterday was like someone completely different. He was getting it! He's staying.

Man, and why are there no cute guys this year? That hurts my feelings. MAYBE Chris Richardson, but it's not like I would tune in just for him (like the dudes on I Love New York)

Conclusion: Guys were much better than last week, but the girls still don't have anything to worry about.

CHUT UP!

That is the best quote ever in life....well that and Go Back to China.... BITCH.

I am done.

Do You Know About Your Roots Girl?

Not biological roots, but hair follicle roots. There's a show on Oxygen called "Gay , Straight, or Taken" and there is this little avatar woman thing that comes up sometimes. So why does this little avatar thing have the darkest roots ever? She has bleached blond hair and what would be the equivalent of about and inch and a half of extra dark red/brown underroot showing???? Is that supposed to be cute now? Just hecka roots showing? I know that now multi color dyage of the hair is in, but roots will never be in and they never we in so, what is up with that? And I think the show is supposed to be marketed toward "hip" and "cool" 20 somethings.... uh, whatever, maybe they are trying to bring it in style.

Side note: My mom just called me and was like, "Listen!" and she put the phone up to the radio and, "Return of the Mack" was playing. lol. See my mom knows what's up!

Hottest Man Alive

I was just re-reading a couple of my latest posts, and I came upon my Prince defense post. I feel the need to elobrate on this a bit. Prince Nelson is a freaking genius, in all aspects of the word. This guy started in 1978 and is still going strong... that is 29 years! Prince himself is only 48 years old! But anyway, he busted onto the scence in 1978, a liberal time, but still nowhere near where we are today (and no, we are not at the uptopian place, I am just speaking in reletive terms). He had his oversexualized songs, his oversexualized videos, and his oversexualized self to boot and he still had mad success. I mean be real, dude looked like a cross between a man and a female, yet he was non-mistakenly a sexy man. He had permed hair.... but yet, he had a chest full of manly chest hair. Contridiction much? He had assless chaps and yet he has been known to be a lover of women. Yet people were able to overlook all this and celebrate him for the artist he is. He has a crazy falsetto, yet his speaking voice is deep and sexy. Lol.


Seriously, look at that feathered hair! Lol! Yet, he was/still is undeniably hot.

Oh yeah, and Prince had an album in 1988 called "Lovesexy"...note the combination of Love and sexy into... lovesexy... dost that remind us of anything? Possibly FutureSex/LoveSounds.. Justin Timberlake??!??!?? How dare you try to clown Prince in a song, but you have copied countless things from him... you are not original. Dang, see I'm bout to get upset again.

The Shaft

I have had a love hate relationship with Track and Field since 1999, when I started doing it. I have always liked it because I was great at it. In high school, I was the best in northern California in 3 events, and that is no bullish. I would tell you to look it up, but then that would require me to put my real name up on here, but I don't think I am going to do that. But I digress, a have always felt a degree of resentment toward Track because I've felt that it took away experiences that I should have had. There were many social things that I didn't get to do because of track, but I will admit that others had it worse (my boyfriend didn't get to go to prom because his MOC meet was the same day).

This love/hate relationship continued and worsened in college. My first year, I went to unnamed school in Maryland and they recked havoc on my body. I gained 20 pounds of muscle and was constantly hurt because my little frame couldn't support all that weight (I went in at 125 left at 140). I decided that I had too much potential in track to just waste away there (I was an high school all American for crying out loud), so I decided to transfer to Cal. I wasn't very learned about the transfer process or anything like that, so I wasn't aware that I could redshirt my outdoor season and add it to my season at the new school, and the coaches didn't tell me. So I was basically running hurt all year. However, that year, 2003 was no doubt the best of my life. Because I sucked at track and was constantly hurt, I paid more attention to my social life. I actually DID things, I had a close group of friends and I was a genuinely happy person.

When I transferred to unnamed school in California , I realized what a mistake I had made, and was bitter the whole time. I was still hurt from my Maryland injuries, and the coaches too no time to try to heal me. I was STILL the second fastest on the team with my injuries, so the coaches decided to run me still hurt. This happened for 2 years, without a mention of redshirting me. Then my last year, when I had 5 more credits left to take, my coach was like, "Maybe we should redshirt you this year". Dude, I have 5 credits, you can't exactly redshirt on 5 credits. I had recovered finally from my injury (after 3 years, dang) and I was tearing ish up. I made it to number three on the unnamed school in California All Time List in one event and am number one on 3 relays and I am on the list in two other events. At my regional track meet, the meet before NCAA's , I made it to the final in one event, and that was the first time, the coaches ever sent me to get treatment from an Olympic physical therapist. Just ignore my ass for three years, and now you wanna give me attention and I had one more damn race left. If that isn't the shaft I don't know what is.

I was thinking about this Saturday, and it made me so mad, I got a migraine. I devoted seven years of my life to track and field and I ended up with the biggest shaft ever man. What makes it worse, is that when I left (May 2006), I was in my prime. I was jumping the farther than I have ever jumped, I was running faster than I ever ran. I coulda taken this year and tried to make it on the pro circuit, and honestly, no bullish, I believe I coulda made it on... but I didn't have anyone to sponsor me, and running track takes money. Plus, I felt it was time to be real about my life and start my adult life, thusly, law school. Yes, I did basically go through college free (I have 2,000 in loans and that's only because I wanted to go on vacation one summer, lol) but I missed out on so much because of track. I coulda gotten better grades, done internships, made good friends, not just acquaintances at unnamed California school. But you know, what's done is done, but it just burns my up to know that I got played big time for the last three years of my life.

Through this experience, I have learned a lot about myself though... and I am appreciative of that, but it still hurts when I look back on it.

Bastards. But I'm not angry.
Conclusion: Don't get hurt in NCAA D1 College Sports.

209

Donnie Darko

Donnie Darko (2001), no matter how dark it is, is a pretty good movie. I had never seen it before today, but I really like it. The kinda alternate universe type thing going on... it really makes you think. And the whole existentialism part of it, that he was forced to do all of these things to make life and time right. Plus, even though he hasn't been in that many movies, Jake Gyllenhaal is a really good actor. And for some reason, his extreme funny looking-ness kinda makes him a little attractive... weird I know. I also saw Brokeback Mountain (2005) for the first time a couple of days ago, well actually, I didn't see the tent scenes, but I saw the rest after the cowboy dance he went to with Anne Hathaway and I must say it was a pretty good movie too. And he was good in The Good Girl (2001) too, kinda the same dark person, but it was good.

By the way, that bunny suit thing was mad scary... I didn't like it... those teeth man!

This movie also introduced me to the song, "Head Over Heels" by Tears for Fears which was featured in a school yard montage in the movie. Apparently, this is like a classic scene in the movie... see for yourself.

Video Soul

I do not know what my obsession with music is right now... but I am obsessed. I have BET Jazz and sometimes they show reruns of Video Soul. These videos are classic, and they bring you back to a better time man. Seriously though... just listening to some of the songs, and seeing the vidoes and stuff makes me so nostalgic and teary eyed. Today... I saw Mint Conditions, "You Send Me Swinging (Remix)" from 1993. Where are the groups like this now? I mean really. They were getting it man. And "Groove Thang" from Zhane who were straight beautiful (chicks wore cloths back then).

Who ARE you?

Excuse me if I sound angry... but I am about tired of Justin Timberlake and his ego... cuz it is really not cute. That Timbaland song with him and Nelly Furtado

Yeah, there was just an earthquake... this is not cute. (3:46pm... it was a 3.4 minor earthquake. 3 miles southeast of Berkeley. By the way, this is the 5th earthquake in about 2-3 months in that same place, I am NOT happy about this.

anyway, the song is called "Give It To Me" and it is annoying. He has this line in the song that goes like this, "If sexy never left then why's everybody on my shit, don't hate on me just because you didn't come up with it". This is supposed to be a comeback to Prince who basically said that sexy never left. First of all, it was a joke. Everyone knows that Prince originated sexy I don't know who he thinks he is, but he is nowhere close to being cool as Prince. Prince has been around since before dude was ever born and people STILL love him. He is STILL the king of what he does and he STILL can get it OK. SO DO NOT HATE ON HIM. He was letting you know that you aren't all you think you are little boy. And you say your reign will be over when you say... whatever homie.... when you are no longer heard of, Prince will STILL be making it happen. Technically, you kinda are someone Justin Timberlake, but you ARE NO ONE COMPARED TO PRINCE NELSON... and the sooner you understand that, the better off you'll be. Pump your breaks for a cool second. BE REAL WITH YOUR LIFE.

Fledgling

So I just finished reading Fledgling by Octavia Butler and to no surprise, I have mixed feelings about the book. I liked the book and I feel that it had potential to be a good trilogy (however, her untimely death is not going to allow this to happen)... BUT the catch is that it was just like Adulthood Rites except the Oankali were replaced by vampires. But I do like how she somehow managed to weave issues of race in here too... not directly, but very subtly.

I am noticing some themes in here books here that are kinda bothering me. In most of her books, she doesn't have black male characters, she just has the one strong black female protagonist. She always has Well this is not totally true because in Wild Seed (from the Seed to Harvest group) there was Doro, and in Fledgling there was her symbiont Joel, and in Kindred, the boyfriend was black, and in Parable of the Sower, Olamina's boyfriend was African. But these characters tend to be foil characters. They don't really have any substance to them. Most of the black female characters develop relationships with white or Asian or Latin men. What does THIS mean?

She also keeps mentioning this them of longing and hunger and the need to human contact YET she professed herself to be a hermit and a loner. This I don't understand. In the Lilith's Brood trilogy the Oankali had a need for physical human contact. One of the ooloi almost died because he had no contact with a human. She also kept mentioning about how humans touch each other. In Fledgling Shori kept mentioning how she needed to be touched by humans and the hunger for blood she always had. I also think this has something to do with addiction. In Bloodchild, the same hunger was expressed through T'Gatoi and her need to touch.

And what is up with the issue of sterility? And these apocalyptic notions? And these bigger than life women?

Butler's books are just so complicated... but when things are really easy, we don't really appreciate them now do we.

My Secret Shame

I have no idea why, and this is not something new, this started in about 7th grade, but I have a secret. A deep dark secret, perhaps a very surprising secret. Here goes...

I am sort of a fan of... dance/club/techno music, aka, "gay man club music" (how very politically incorrect that statement is, but that is the only thing that I can say to get the point across). I don't know how this started, actually I think I know... I went to a pretty much all white elementary/middle school and this stuff was big then. Like Ace of Base and stuff... just big... and for some reason I have not been able to leave it alone.

All Time Favorite list (in no particular order):

- Ace of Base, Beautiful Life
- Modjo, Lady
- Ultra Nate, Free
- Amber, Sexual
- La Bouche, Be My Lover
- George Michael- Fastlove (This doesn't really fall into that category, but the way the beat falls kinda makes me think it does)

---------------------------
Totally unrelated, but possibly one of the best song ever.... and I mean this... I just get happy whenever I hear this song... hotness. lol. Mark Morrison's "Return of the Mack". The long piano intro and outro still gives me chills when I hear it, see I am listening to it now and almost tearing up. Whatever you wanna say, this is a classic. I love his accent, and the smooth beat behind it. This was it in like 7th grade! I can remember singing it in the car on the way to school and stuff. Good times. Why am I so nostalgic lately?

American Idol Is Not Fair

Man, American Idol is simply not fair, and for it to BE fair, I think they need to make some drastic changes. Sorry to say this, but they need to split it between races because it is just NOT fair. Not at all... or at least for the women. (Yeah, sense the sarcasm). Seriously, the first episode was actually kinda embarrasing and hard to watch for me because it was blatenly obvious that the five black (ish) girls completly blew away the other girls... minus Gina, she was good. But I mean completly blew them away! It wasn't even a competition.

But then again, American Idol is not just about singing... it's about who is reletively good looking and who also has a reletively OK voice. The person with the best voice NEVER wins... its the person who is most marketable and who has the most decent voice. Lakeisha Jones is not going to win and we know that. She sang that song better than anyone else on American Idol could and I bet if she woulda sang the whole song, it woulda been better and she woulda killed it even worse. Let us be real with ourselves. Melinda Doolittle is not going to win.... she doesn't have a neck and she's kinda odd shaped. They are definatly the two best singers... but they aren't "cute" so they aren't going to win. Honestly, Stephanie Edwards is pretty, and her voice is cool, but it's not going to happen for her. Sabrina Sloan and Jordin Sparks have a chance because thier voices are better than Stephanie, but not as good as Lakeisha or Melinda, and they are light skinned and have that curly hair. lol.

Now, onto the white chicks...let's start with Gina Glocksen. She was definatly the best white girl... although she got a little cocky in judging and for the record, she didn't hit that note. All the rest were boring... Haley Scarnato actually wasn't bad either I just didn't like the song and she put me to sleep but the singing wasn't bad. Leslie Hunt, once again, wasn't bad but wasn't good either. Amy Krebs though... extra boring. Nicole Tranquillo just up and down scared me if we are being real. She sang, "Stay" originally done by Chaka Khan, but she tried to do the Erykah Badu version and killed it in a extra negative way. She was screaming and hella forced it. I was mad, I actually like that song! And last, Antonella Barba and Alaina Alexander... obviously the two worst.... but they are "marketable". Both of them need to be gone, but I think people will keep them since they are skinny ethnically questionable girls but whatever.

Oh yeah, and the guys just sucked so hard that I didn't even take time to mention them. Except for that cute Carribeanish guy.. Jared Cotter. He was decent. Or maybe it was just cuz he was kinda cute. I don't know.

Speaking of good songs... I really like that Ultra Nate song, "Free", it's old but it's hot.

203

Why You Talk Like That (Sic)?

This is sooooo random, but I cannot stand when people are typing a text message or an AIM message or even an email and they shorten words. I just can't stand that. Contractions are one thing, they don't bother me because in this post alone, I have already used two.... but when people shorten words that really don't need to be shortened... NOT COOL.

For instance.... when people type "kno" for "know"??? I mean dude, come on now, you only needed to type a "w" for that word to be complete. Now I know that was not that difficult, you know? That is definitely the one shortened word that irritates me.

Or when people are typing an AIM message and they type like they are on a cell phone. Lemme back up, on old school cell phones, not like Smartphones or sidekicks, but where there are three letters per button and you have to cycle through the letters, it is kinda acceptable for word shortening. BUT ON AIM? Come on that's just silly. Type the word out dude. It's not cute.

OOOOO, I have another one, what about people who try to use accents that really aren't theirs. Yes, sometimes if a person is in a certain situation long enough, they acquire different accents, but I can't stand when people talk one way in one situation and then another in a different situation. Sometimes, that is necessary, like if you are going on an interview or something of that nature, but ooo. I hate when people put on fake accents... ahhh. I know you grew in up CA... why are you trying to talk like you are from the south and you've never even been there or know anyone from there except for the people on TV?

Oh yeah, I can't stand when people overuse (sic). We know that you really don't talk like that and that you are mocking someone, it is not necessary to use it everytime you mock someone. In news paper articles, OK, but not in everyday writting.

PS... Jim Carrey said that he is very romantic... after he is intimate with a woman... he gets up and gets her a wet cloth. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. Great.

Twins?

I think this guy on American Idol, Sanjaya Malakar is the little boy on "Ugly Betty". I really do, they kinda look alike, they talk alike and they have the same mannerisms..... interesting.

Lilith's Brood

So I have finished "Lilith's Brood" by Octavia E. Butler and I have mixed feelings about the book. It seems like every book I read by her is more disturbing than the next, but still, I can't stop reading them (I already bought Fledgling and I think I am going to start it tonight).

So, "Lilith's Brood" is a trilogy that was previously called Xenogenesis and includes three books, "Dawn", "Adulthood Rites", and "Imago". Dawn was about a human woman, Lilith and her experiences with the Oankali... their changing her, forcing her to be a Moses to her people, and them forcing human sterility upon her and only making them fertile with Oankali. Adulthood Rites was about Akin, Lilith's son, who is both Oankali and human.... he eventually get separated and placed with an all human resister group and is not found until he is an adolescent. This book talks about his issues with being both Oankali and Human. Imago was about another one of Lilith's sons, Jodahs, who becomes an Ooloi (Sexless Oankali/Human construct).

Overall, a GREAT book. It showed so many inherent human flaws that most people don't think about every day. First, according to the Oankali, humans are inherently contradictory. We have very complex bodies and complex minds, however, we don't use 75 percent of what we are capable of. Out bodies just don't know how to work that way. Also, humans are hierarchical. Most of the time, we are all working toward the same goal, but the need to always rule and be on top prevents possible progress.

One more note, I think it is ironic that Octavia Butler wrote all of these books about immortal people and people who had extended lives, yet she died so "young". I mean she was 50 something, it wasn't like she was 70. But she will continue to be known through these books though...just straight genius. Who thinks to write things like this? Not because they are so off the wall, but because they are so novel. And it isn't what she wrote, but it is the way she wrote things. The development of characters are so deep... you actually feel like you KNOW the characters.

Coolest Accent

I think the coolest accent EVER is definitely the Boston accent. I just saw "The Departed" and I loooove that accent.. especially on men. I love the missing "r" and the broad "a", just coolness.

Jamaican accent is a close second though. Enough with the randomness.

The Humpty Dance Here's Your Chance To Do The Hump!

Digital Underground was so underrated and overlooked it really isn't even funny. "The Humpty Dance" was a straight classic OK. Woooo, I heard "Kiss Me and I'll Kiss You Back" on the radio and was getting it in the car boy! And it didn't hurt them that Shock G was fine as all get out! They are reminiscent of Parliament Funkadelic, but still they were able to make something of their own. Just good junk.

Really though, what happened to music? This was greatness. Yes, I know music must evolve, but did it have to evolve into ish?

Anyway, so on 106.1, 94.9 and sometimes 98.1, they have the old skool lunch hour and they were getting it today! Usually, I hear one or two good songs but they were on today, they even played "Mercedes Boy" by Pebbles! No, she really couldn't sing, but the beat was hot!

I also heard, "Ain't Too Proud to Beg" by TLC.... greatness again.... Lucky I can't find it on imeem.com or else it would be on here.

Ahh, I miss that old school stuff ...

Tim Hardaway.... You Too?????

OK, so what is the issue with these publicly homophobic black men? I mean seriously. What is the deal. It is not cute, and for some reason, I think they think it is somewhat cute.

First, we had Isaiah Washington aka Dr. Preston Burke calling TR Knight aka Dr. George O'Malley a faggot in rehearsals for "Grey's Anatomy". Yeah, OK whatever, he didn't do this in public or say that he hated gay people. But wait!! There's more! At the GOLDEN GLOBES, with hella people watching, he decides to say that he didn't call dude a faggot, and if I am not wrong, I think he had the award in hand while he said it. LOL.

Now, Tim Hardaway wants to come out and say that he hates gay people. I mean hate? Why did he have to say hate? And then he goes on to say that if there was a gay person on his team, he would ask that he be removed. Seriously, for what? What purpose is that going to serve? Does he think he is going to contract AIDS or something? Does he think the gay man is going to be looking at his little pee pee while he is showering? I mean what? Just straight up dumb.

Admittedly, my first year of high school, I was a bit uncomfortable with the gay people in my class, but that was because I had never met any gay people before. I was 14... NOT 41, I still had a lot of learning a maturing to do to be able to understand what it really was and wasn't.

I still just don't understand why black MEN of all people tend to be the most homophobic. Seriously, I know it is and old horse that has been beaten time and time again... but if you know how you're ancestors we're persecuted for everything little they did, why would you think it is OK to do it to someone else? I mean seriously. Or even if you felt that way, why would you say it in public? Gosh, the ignorance and gall of some of these people just is beyond me. Actually, I believe the Isaiah Washington issue was a bit different.... he just slipped up, but the Tim Hardaway one is completely beyond me....

Off the Wall

SOOOOOO tonight, gotta leave that 9 to 5 up on the shelf, and just enjoy yourself. Come on and GROOOOOOVE, let the madness in the music get to you, life ain't so bad at all. When you live it OFF THE WALL!!

This is basically a follow up to this post about Michael Jackson. And like I said in another post before, I get on muscially binges, and obviously, I am on a Michael Jackson binge. HELP ME SOMEONE!

Engaged and Underage

Ok.... a couple of days ago, a friend asked me if I was just too conscious... if I thought about everything consciously. My answer to that was yes.... his response was to ask if it made me too mad, and my answer is no. I find an issue... then discuss it or write it in my blog, then I dispose of it. So NO, I don't think that I am overly conscious about the world. Things bother me and I have to say them, so there. HMPH.

OK, so the title of the post. MTV has a show called, "Engaged and Underage" and I can't help but wonder if this is a bit socially irresponsible. Yes, the minimum age to be on the show is 18 and one can legally get married at 18 so there really shouldn't be a problem right? Yeah, wrong. I think there is a big problem. When you are 18, you are just a child. I don't care what experiences you've gone through or blah blah, you are still a child. There is no way at 18 to completely know oneself. Yes, it is true that some 30 or 50 or 70 year olds don't know themselves as well as they would like to, but there are more life experiences that come with age.

Anyway, my problem is that the show makes it seem OK for 18 year olds to be married. Although I am a proponent of "Doing You", I can't understand why someone would do this. And I am not just talking out of my behind because I only too well know the feelings that are going though their minds. At 20, I KNEW I wanted to get married to my boyfriend and he KNEW he wanted to get married to me. I mean convinced and there was no one who could tell me any different. I didn't really discuss it with anyone, but I knew that people didn't agree with it and I couldn't understand why. Now, I am 23 and I KNOW that would have been the biggest mistake ever. That doesn't mean that I don't love him, because I do, but it is not the right time. We aren't settled and don't know ourselves yet. Not the time.

To me, the show is saying, "People tell you you are too young to get married, well then eff em because these people did it so SO CAN YOU!!!" However as much as I am going off about the show... I can't stop watching it because it is so hilarious to me. Especially the Mexican chick and the black dude that were going to get married. They had this big ass immature ass blow out on the eve of their wedding, they treated each other like ish, yet they still got married. Or the two couples who lived in their parents guest house/ a trailer in their garage. WTF? This just proves these people aren't mature or stable to be getting married. GAAH.

A Little Mini-Me!!!!

I just looked at the Yahoo! Avatar I did of myself in my profile.... and why does it actually kinda look like me? I am a little bothered by that. #1, I would wear something like that... #2, I wear my hair like that alot, and the same color. #3, My facial features are actually very similar to that, except my forehead isn't that big.

Conclusion: I think someone at Yahoo! saw a picture of my and decided to use me as an avatar model.

African American Interest Books

So I am in Barnes and Noble today just browsing passing time and I come upon the "African-American Interest" section. I was kind of confused about what I saw because the only books I saw were books relating to sex and violence. Now, had the title been African American Authors, there would be no problem BECAUSE the authors were African American. But African American INTEREST. Now, had there been other books in here like some Octavia Butler or Walter Mosely or something like that there wouldn't be an issue.

Now behind that "African American Interest" section, was a section that had non-fiction books by African American authors, but I can't remember. Where were the other countless authors who write fiction or science fiction... not just the Arabesque Romance authors?

I LOVE when I go into stores like Marcus Books (Bay Area regional black bookstores) and Karibu Books (DC regional black bookstores). They have such a variety of books by black authors... books you never would have seen in a mainstream store like Barnes and Noble or Borders. This is not to say that they don't have some, because they do, but not the assortment that I like.

Also, I am sooo proud to say that Karibu books actually has a STORE now in Pentagon City Mall... not just a little cart. The store was small yes, but it had lots of books... and not just sexually explicit books, books of substance. Making progress.

Don't forget to visit your local black bookstores... they needs the support.

Best Video EVER

Uncouthness

Apparently, having a perm or somewhat texturized hair makes one uncouth. This MUST be the reason for the Racial Divide. It all is so very clear to me. LOL. Taking Sen. Biden's words completly out of context here for entertainment purposes... perms make blacks looks dirty and forces them to be "inarticulate".

On a serious note, why would he think that these comments were OK to say. He meant them as compliments, but seriously, you just took a boo boo on all the other black people who have tried.

Weatherford BMW Sucks

Yeah, don't go to Weatherford BMW... they suck.... as indicated in the title. I bought a used car from them about six months ago and I have already had to have it towed twice.... TWICE. Yeah, and it wasn't even an old car... it's a 2001. The first time was a little less than month after I bought it... the coolant socket had blown and it was spewing coolant everywhere... they told me it was unsafe to drive, so I had to tow it. Second time, was last night... I had a flat tire. Yeah, that was nobodies fault. But wait! There's more! I look in my trunk to put the spare tire on.... and there is no spare. They sold me a car with no spare tire. What the hell? Are you serious? You just don't do that. AND they said it was already in there. That is sooo uncool. So I had to get the car towed back to my house.

I think I got sold a baby lemon. The check engine light won't go off although there is nothing wrong with my engine. The grill came out and I had to gorilla glue it back in. There were some other things, but the only thing that saves my car is it is a Black 2001 BMW 325ci.... so it looks HOT, but it is a piece of dook. I love it, but they sold me a handicapped car. In the words of the Geico caveman.... NOT COOL.

That Hippity Hop

I had a freaking flat tire yesterday and because I live in the boonies, I have no way to get to work, so I am sitting at home listening to music since nothing is on TV. Today, I am East Coast Lyrical Hip-Hop.

Now, like I have said many times... I am not the biggest fan of mainstream music.... especially the new stuff that is on the radio now. However, I have always been and probably always be a fan of East Coast Lyrical Hip-Hop, especially like Mos Def, Talib Kweli, Lupe Fiasco, Common and the like. I even like more mainstream East Coast Lyricists like Nas and somewhat Jay-Z.

I love it when people have nice beats and have words to go with the beats. Anyone can produce a nice beat, but it takes an artist to make you hear the words too. It is very easy to block nonsense out, but it's harder to block meaning out. Why does it seem like the only region that has important to say is the East Coast, namely New York? Seriously though.... West Coast is about getting high and parting and Down South is about partying and strip clubs. Now I am not saying that some East Coast rappers don't rap about this stuff because they do, but it isn't what they are known for. Anyway, I digress, I was trying to say that I think people just don't make meaningful lyrics because they are just in it for the money and chicks. People don't get into the game to be heard anymore, they get in it for the fame... this has got to change people.

Also, they WAY one spits over the beat is very important. I think what is also lacking today is the fact that these new school rappers have no signature style... better yet, no style at all. People like Nas, Mos Def, Jay-Z, Busta Rhymes, and dare I say, even Too Short (lol) all have distinctive ways that they flow OVER beats... not with the beats. If you took out each persons distinctive voice intonation and just listen to the way that they set up words you could tell who it was. These new school people just seem to get lost in the beats... the beat just overtakes what they are saying because there is no thought behind the process.

Wouldn't Get Far

So, I just saw The Game's new video for, "Wouldn't Get Far". Now, I must admit, even though The Game isn't my favorite artist, I like this song. One, because the beat is hot and two because he is speaking the truth. The song is basically saying if these video hoes weren't out there relating these men.... they would be nowhere, thus, "Wouldn't Get Far". I mean, he coulda used a little more tact and less of the B word, but hey, it is what it is. AND he uses examples... I love it. But what I find really interesting is that he does use names to bust these chicks out. Yeah, everyone know what they do, but it's more "on the low". Yeah, he pulled a Karrine Stephans, GREAT!!!!!!

But what I am tripping about is.... did these chicks even listen to the song before they agreed to be in it? The song is pretty much boo booing all over video hoes... and yet there are STILL video hoes in the video!!!!! I mean, if someone was talking ish about track athletes, I would not be up in the video triple jumping.... it just wouldn't happen. What kind of self respecting person would do that though. Is the need to be on TV and be seen THAT strong that you would show your face while someone is disrespecting you???? Dizzam, not even that serious. Hella smiling in the video and stuff like everything is OK.

Oh yeah, I am not saying that everyone that dances in videos are hoes, because they aren't. A small portion of them are ACTUAL dancers, who aspire to do great things in their lives, not just be in the new Lil Jon video. LOL. Like Celestina, the chick that was in Prince's, "Black Sweat" video. She is a really good dancer and that is what she has a passion for. She wasn't all up in the video hella nasty rubbing on Prince and stuf... she was straight.

Conclusion: Video hoes are silly people.

Huh?

Parties are the way to social justice.
- Jus Rhyme.

He he he.... Then I suppose I should go out more then huh.

PS... that was from VH1's ego trip's White Rapper Show. He He.

Potter Releases

I am a little uncomfortable that the new Harry Potter book and the fifth movie are supposed to be coming out within a week of each other. I think it is a bit too much. Don't get me wrong, I thought the book was supposed to come out in 2008, so when I heard it was coming out in six months, I was very excited.

Just not sure how to react to all this Harry Potter news going on.