Ok, so I just got done watching America's Next Top Model, and all I can say is.... WTF. Melrose looks like a dude. I am not one to talk about ugly people or whatever in regular life, but when people are putting that chick up like she is just so beautiful is absolutly ridiculous to me. No offense, but she looks like an absolute dude. I know that beauty is subjective and whatever, but she doesnt even look feminine to me. At most, she looks transvestitish in her pictures. Jada, who was "handsome" had boyish features, however, she ALWAYS looks like a girl. Melrose though, come ON.

Alma de Vita

So, I just downloaded a couple of songs from Paolo Rustichelli and I must say that he has a very unique style. He is classified as both Jazz and New Age (both of my favorites), but he also has a little bit of a Italian operatic voice. It's really wierd actually, but I like it. I think I likes him because his style is kinda like Philippe Saisse's... it's not something that you hear everyday on the radio. My favorite songs are Paisa (Mystic Man), Neopagan (Neopagan), Alma de Vita (Neopagan), and Sol (Neopagan). His music is really earthy, and it makes you feel good and in a way spiritual... not in the same way that gospel music or Christmas music might make you feel spiritual... but close to nature like. It's wierd.. I mean, just look at the few titles right there. Paisa means brother, Neopaganism is a religion that is kinda tied in with the earth, Sol is sun, Alma de Vita is kinda soul to life.

The only kind of disturbing thing about the music is he sings some of the vocals and his voice is really gruffy and somewhat operatic. It kinda disrupts the flow of the music sometimes, but it still is good.

Overall rate... 3 out of 5

Progression

Ok, so I have a feeling that I am going to be writting a lot today. First things first, LSAT is in 2 days... 2 days. One of the biggest standardized tests (next to the bar) that I will ever take in my life is in two days. I took off of work this week to get a lot of studying done and it seems as though it is actually working out. My practice test scores are going up because I realized how to finally do a reading comprehension question. YAY. You aren't supposed to actually read and understand the material, you just have to get the darn questions right. DUR. I mean seriously. I do feel a lot more confident, however I still feel like they are going to throw me some ridiculous logic games question and I am going to have NO IDEA how to do it. That is my ultimate fear.

Any way, so onto the more important things, Thanksgiving. My family couldnt figure out what to do for Thanksgiving, so we did the LCD and went to an old family friends house. I have known them since I was four. It was the first time that the girl would be back from grad school in NY, so I figured it would be interesting to see if she had changed. Me and the girl went to school together until 5th grade and kinda kept in touch, but our parents knew each other before, so they of course kept in touch. They always babied the girl because she is below average height (she doestn have dwarfism, but she is considered to be a LP). She also kinda had this thing about her... it was really hard to talk to her because she was so out of touch because her parents wouldn't let her live. And she was always kinda rounder. But anyway, so when I saw her, I was so surprised... she lost weight and she looked good. And we actually had good conversations and I didn't want to leave because we were having so much fun together. And her parents werent treating her like a damn baby. I was just so amazed how much she grew up in three months... we hadn't connected like that since 3rd grade because I always felt like we were just NOT on the same maturity level but my goodness, I could actually see her as being a friend.

OK, first of all, I'm not 100% in love with your tone

Now, on Geico caveman commercial four, I can't decide if the look is has while moving past the Caveman billboard was joy at seeing a caveman, or just like the, "Oh here we go again" look.

Last Random Post of the Day

So I'm on Rhapsody, and for some reason, I get into these moods where I just listen to all kinds of old music. So, for some reason, tonight I'm on Parliament Funkadelic, George Clinton, and ever other name they even served under. It made me start thinking about when I saw George Clinton in concert when I was in MD. That was the best concert I have ever been to in my life. It was outside and it was in Byrd Stadium... so it was ample dancing room on the field. It was a good amount of people there too, but there was also a Dru Hill concert that night, and you know people from Baltimore love them some Dru Hill. Anyhoo... I remember most vividly was Sir Nose... now I don't know if this was the same Sir Nose they used in the 70's or what, but he was still hot as hell. I don't care what anybody says. Me and my friends were just standing there watching him gyrate and stuff. LOL. I mean ole dude had BODY. It was great.

Kramer is at it again

Ok, so here Kramer is on Letterman explaining himself... and he is saying he is sorry and everything. Yeah, from first glance, you're like... good for him he is repenting... but yeah. It is so obvious, he is borderline racist, you know I mean seriously. It one of those things where I don't even think he really knows it, but it is just something inherent in his person. Dudes talking about Katrina, and "afro-americans" (I didn't think anyone really said that anymore...lol) and blacks and hispanics (I am not "hispanic" or anything... but I am pretty sure that it isn't exactly PC to say hispanic anymore. I'm not hating, I'm just saying)... and how he doesnt want to spark a black/white racial fued... yeah, it's just a lot.

So of course, I am going to make my obligatory LSAT reference.... it sucks ass, and it is still sucking ass, at least I have another week and a half to fine tune myself, because to be very honest, I am so damn sick of it right now it is not even funny. I mean not even a little bit. But whatever, I guess it will be cool on December 3, 2006.

Onto other topics... yeah, Kramer dude busted a gasket. I mean seriously. Check for yourself on youtube. I mean seriously, a sane person does not act like that. I really think that he slipped a disc or something, may something short circuited or something because normal people just don't act like that. And did he think the audience was going to support him. Uh, it wasn't like he was in West VA or Mississippi or something like that where he might have had a chance. And I am surprised a riot didn't break out, but then of course the story would have been turned to make Kramer look like the victim, so I am glad no one rushed the stage. This outburst was like Mel Gibson level. But at least Kramer really won't fall as much as Mel Gibson did because as the guy in the audience so eloquently put it... he's a nobody. And now we know that that erratic behavior he did when playing him was actually him, because no one can fake the kind of crazy he showed on that stage.

Now that Dancing with the Star's is off, there is nothing to watch on TV on Tuesday, which is to me, unacceptable.

Ok, so after some rest, I think I am ready to write again. Now I figured out what is wrong with my thought process here. I am at a serious cross in my life, I am on the brink of taking the the second biggest test of my life... and the brink of major serious changes in my life and was well as to my person (I mean seriously, as much as people want to say that they aren't changed by things, they are lying because each situation you go through changes you in some way, it doesn't necessarily have to be bad). I think the reason that I am having mental problems with my boyfriend is because I am scared that he won't fit into my later plans in life. Now that doesnt mean that I don't love him, because I love him so much it isn't even funny. I mean, we grew up in two different settings, have different views on life, everything about us is different beside the fact that we are in love with each other. That is pretty much the only thing we have in common. I love spending time with him, and there are very few people who make me laugh like him. HOWEVER, we don't really have intellectual discussions and he doesnt really mentally challenge me. I am in now way saying he is dumb because he is and extremely intelligent person, but he doesn't really use it (or better yet know how).

But then, he went back home this weekend and I really miss him. He's only been gone for three days and I miss him a lot. After December 20, he is supposed to move back home and I honestly don't know if I can take it. Also, I am not sure if he wants me to stop him. It never hit me until I was in the shower today... he may just need me to tell him that I don't want him to go. I just don't know. I am so confused. I don't want him to go at all, but I think that it would be selfish of me to ask him to stay up here and he can't afford it.

We have been together for three years, and we have had some ups and downs that turned into breaking up for four months. But we understand each other on the deepest levels so much. Everything that I "take issue with" with him is on the outer levels and honestly things that shouldn't matter all that much, but for some reason, I am acting like they do. I still love him so much. He is such a big part of my life, I don't want him to just leave. We're still going to stay together, but I know it is going to be hard... 300 miles away is a lot of distance both mentally and physically. And way, it just hit me how hard this is going to be if he actually decides to go home and I really don't want him to. I want him to stay with me. THERE I SAID IT.

3rd post of the day... what is up with me

So I must be procrastinating aka... not wanting to study anymore for the LSAT after I just took my last practice test. But yeah, this is my third entry of the day because I keep thinking of things I want to write about. And I actually forgt that quick and anyone who has actually talked to me in person knows that this is not an unusual thing. But I guess it is my signal to go and study.... WELLL

So, know I know that I am doing way much (actually it isn't way much because it is oh so necessary) with this LSAT thing. I am improving by leaps and bounds in Logic Games and Logical Reasoning, but I am still struggling with reading comprehension. I mean seriously, it seems like it should be nothing... read a passage and answer some factual questions about what you read. But it is so not that easy. Anyhoo... the reason that I am writting is because now, when ever I am talking to people or hearing people speak, I am constantly trying to pick apart thier argument. Actually, I did it before I started the law school, but now, what I do actually has names. I find myself thinking... wow... his argument is totally flawed because he is not considering other alternatives and such. Just things like that, or trying to find ways to weaken people's argument and stuff. NOT COOL. I mean seriously...But you know, a lot of people say that they don't understand what the point of the LSAT is in regards to law school. I was one of these people until last week, but know I know exactly why. The LSAT makes you questions EVERYTHING. You cannot assume anything that is not given to you and you can't bring in outside knowledge in order to attack a question. I mean while it is not like the MCAT where you learn specific knowledge, it does teach some of the skills that are needed to be a good lawyer.

On another note, CAL football sucks buttcheeks. They do this every single year, they start out really strong and then around mid november, they want to eff everything up. I mean seriously. I don't know if they get over confident or what, but they have done this in every year that I went there, and I am sure that they did it before I got there too. Now... what is the problem. Well obviously, one problem is no matter how good the team is, they won't be good without a good quarterback. Ayoob sucked, Longshore is sucking... what is the issue. But then, we must look to the source, Jeff Tedford (or as I like to call him, Teff Jedford). Maybe he has the ability to turn a program around, but I don't think he has the abilty to win big games. Seriously, it is something that is just not clicking.

If ignorance had a face...

Ok, so I am flipping through Essence magazine and I come across a quotes page. So Kanye West is on there, and his quote basically says that without the mixing of races, there wouldn't be video girls. Then he goes on to say that him and his friends happen to be very fond of "mutts". Yeah, this quote just screams out "I am one ignorant MoFo." I mean really, let's be real with ourselves. Who the hell says this, I mean seriously. There are so many implications to what he said it is not even funny. And he seriously has lost all kinds of credibility... not that he had much left after he bumrushed not one but TWO awards shows because he didn't win. Dude, get over yourself. I mean seriously, just because you spent over a million dollars on a video and because Pamela Anderson was in you video does not mean that you should get an award (confusing necessity with sufficiency...durr). That just means your behind is dumb for doing it. It is just ridiculous. And then I told my dad about the quote and he was like, "Isn't he the dude that made that Jesus Walks" with me song... I mean his whole behavior is paradoxical to me... and no matter how hard I try, I can not solve the apparent discrepancy between what he preaches and what he says.

Where has music/music vidoes gone..

Soooooo... I haven't watched videos in at least a year. I mean seriously. And the only reason they are on now is because I was watching Real World/Road Rules Challenge last night and it was left on MTV so when I turned to the TV on... the videos were on....

First, Justin Timberlake's, "My Love" just confused me. Aside from the fact that the lyrics are incredibly juvenille once you actually listen to them. I mean really, is he asking a girl to be his girlfriend or his wife... I mean seriously. I don't get it. Back to the video. I think I like the concept... but it wasn't played out very well. And to be honest, I liked the fact that he had white girl back up dancers. To me that added something, I don't know, maybe it's because you don't see it that often. But he lost me with the vignettes with him and a girl's ass in is face, yet she's in the background... and the same with TI. I just didn't make sense. And then the camera angle at the end when he was dancing by himself made me dizzy.

Second, Akon's "Smack That"... makes no sense whatsoever. SO that guy.... I forgot his name comes up and is like, "I'mma get yout out of here for 24 hours to help me". So where do they decide to go... a strip club. And this chicks look absolutly gross... I mean, they look sweaty and like they smell and they are just way to jiggly. Tone that mess up, I mean really.

Third, Jay-Z, now I like that video. It's not doing to much... maybe I just like it because I like the song. It's nice and not doing extra much. Jay-Z comes through again for me. Even Danica is in the video. And the chicks in the video are tastefull. Yeah, some were in swimming suits, but it was in the context of the video, I would even wear those. Side note: Even Beyonce looked good, and from me that's saying a lot because usually, she is a bit to jiggly for me, but she was toned ad everything. He has been "in the game" for a while and has matured over time... I mean seriously, I think people like Puffy, no P.Diddy, no Diddy want to act like they are maturing and that they are more than hip-hop, but it just seems so fake to me with "Diddy".

OK, the videos have now gone off and now "Pacey" is on some show on MTV that I have never heard of.

Yeah, so I'm a little late on this, but here goes...

So why did I just find out that people in DC couldn't vote. I mean seriously... I just had no idea. Yes, yes. I was a political science major and yes yes, I did take a class on Congress, and I have voted before, but it NEVER occured to me, that they don't get to vote. This new found knowledge has brought up some serious concerns that are not knew to anyone, however they are new to me so I will write about them.

First, that means that if I move to the DC metro area, I am probably going have to live in MD or VA because how are you going to tell me that I can't vote and I live in the United States... I mean come on now. Second, DC people shouldn't get taxed... they don't have any representation, THUS, they shouldn't get taxed. I mean seriously, I guess the American colonists words were in vain... no one learned from them.

Also, DC is majorly democratic... yet they have NO congressional voting rights... I mean WTF. Seriously, this is not OK. At least let them vote in MD or VA... particularly counties like Anne Arundel and Allegheny... PG doesnt really need it.

NOT COOL GUY....NOT COOL

LSAT Can Suck My.....

I really think that I am getting shafted with this LSAT class. I mean seriously, why I have I had like 7 different teachers, I mean really... how am I supposed to learn when we have a different teacher every other week. Let us be honest with our selves. All I know is I better improve or someone is getting a foot in there damn ass and I am not playing about that.

It's actually funny because I am actually doing worse since I started this class... I won't tell you which one company it is for fear of getting sued (not really... that's just kinda mean). But yeah, I am doing worse than when I started. What the hell is that. I mean really. I started out with a GREAT score in LR and sucky scores in Reading Comp and Logic Games. Now... I am doing GREAT in Logic Games, OK in Reading Comp... and SUCKY is LR. I am just getting overwhelmed with the different kinds of logical reasoning questions and the different ways to answer them. Anyone who knows me knows that I will pick an argument apart, weaken your argument and tell you the flaw in the assumption you made in your method of reasoning. I do this stuff naturally in my natural life and that is why I did SO well on this in my diagnostic... vut NOW... it's like I don't even know how to do it. My next practice test I am just going to do me, and not even trip.