After I graduated college in May, well back up, back up, back up. Since about January 2006, I was missing on AIM, i mean for real. I stopped putting my pictures up on thefacebook (which by the way has gotten completly out of hand, who needs to know when I became friends with anyone or if I have recent activity??- not a member anymore) anyway... oh yeah, and had a blank page on myspace just to look how messed up some of the people from high school turned out. But anyway, upon returning to AIM in around August, I realized that you really do miss certain things. For instance, one of my friends messaged me and was like, "oh, I didn't have your number, but (ex-boyfriend who we shall call Grimey) messaged me on myspace and told me to tell you to check your messages. So I checked my myspace, and looked at his page and was like, "um ew". I mean dude was borderline grimey in highschool, but now, it's just like WOW. He looked hella gross, and had a old ass baby and stuff. It was just like, EW, did I really go out with him? I am SO happy I didn't relate him cuz I would regret that mess so much.

While looking disgustedly at his page that had semi-porno pictures of him on it ( you know the kind that a person takes of themselves in front of the mirror and the color is like hella off), and like there was just pictures of girl ass and happy trails and stuff and it was gross. I started thinking why the hell did I go out with this dude? I mean seriously. It is just amazing how much you could really like someone in 2000, but then be disgusted by them in 2006. I mean appaled.

Then that got me thinking about other past boyfriends/people I've talked to (7), I am now ashamed of two, which isn't bad. I mean seriously though, I was ashamed of my senior year boyfriend during and while, but this junior year one with the semi-porn myspace, I mean I was just so ashamed that I actually thought highly of him. Yes, I know people change and people's opinions changed, but I can't believed that I have changed that much and that I used think that people with no aims in life but to have sex and produce children and whose email address is sexualenergy or something corny like that is OK. Oh man, that was a long vent. Oh yeah, and the other one I'm ashamed of just smelled and he didn't take regular baths, so hells yeah I was ashamed of him, I mean come on!

Everyone else actually served a constructive purpose, so you can't be mad at them, or ashamed. You know.... Ok rant is over. Imma finish watching Dancing with the Stars, right after I write a quick music thing.