Home Sweet Home

It is sooo true. You don't know what you've got until its gone. I remember being so excited about leavign California in August. I was just so anxious to get out of the boringness that is the Bay Area... yes, I would like to renege on this. I don't know if I CAN live anywhere else. Well actually, not true, I can...I'm doing it now. But I just still dont understand why it was 87 degrees when I was leaving Austin. Honestly, what is that?

But yes, it's crazy. I miss the cold. I miss wearing sweaters. I miss good food. I miss the sound of the heat. I miss seeing the water. I miss my parents. I miss my boyfriend. I miss California.

Let's see if I will be lucky enough to have the job search liken a job from LA/SF to fall in my lap. Let us hope.

What I Don't Like About You...Texas

So, basically in the four months that I have been in Texas, I have not felt the need to complain about anything...until this week. I don't know, maybe it is because I am homes sick and am counting the days until I can go back to Cali (16 days to be exact) or maybe it is because it is no longer new to me and I am seeing it for what it is...eh.. who knows. Anyway, here come the complaints.

#1: Why do I feel like everywhere I go, and almost every person(black) person I talk to do I feel like I am being judged because I don't go to church? This was not a big deal in California, at all. If you went to church you went, and if you didn't, you didn't. End of story. But here I feel like people chastise you and seriously judge you if you don't go to church. Just because I don't go to church does not mean that I am an atheist or even agnostic (not that there is anythign wrong with that either)...the only thing it means is that I don't go to church. One of my friends was like really adamant about it too, he was like, "I just really want you to come to church with me"...like it hurt him that I don't go... I just don't understand. I'm a bedside baptist...it is the way that I deal with things...please do not judge me. Everyone shows their faith differently. Understand and accept that, how bout it?

#2: Why can I not get decent chinese food here? I mean it is Mexicanized or something, I can't even explain it really. I suppose growing up in the Bay Area has spoiled me but come ON! And I thought Maryland chinese food was lacking...OH WAIT, there's more. Why can I not get a decent Italian food meal here either? I mean, there is a problem when you have to go to Red Lobster or Dave and Busters to get a decent pasta dish. AND WAIT, there is even more. Why did I go to Dairy Queen a couple of weeks ago and I couldnt even finish it because the smell of grease made me sick to my stomach. Please also tell me why my house smelled like grease for 3 days... no BS.That being said... they can tear up some queso down here though. Case in point... food here (sans Mexican food) is seriously lacking.

Now THIS is what I'm talking about

I was soooo excitable this morning when I woke up and heard rain... but I just about fell out when I went outside. There was like zero humidity...got in my car and the thermometer said 48 degrees...THIS IS WHAT FALL IS. It is a beautiful thing, just loving it. Granted, tomorrow it will probably be 80 degrees but whatever, today completely made my month. I mean I was soooo happy walking the 0.8 miles from school to the bus today. The wind was crazy blowing my hair and ish and I just had to stop and take it all in.

Growing up in the Bay Area spoils you man, seriously. We don't have seasons...it's like 63 degrees average every month...it really is a beautiful thing. Yes yes, I complain about how I don't like the Bay Area because it's kinda boring and there is a serious lack of educated black men there, BUT man...the whether will win my heart for ever. I don't know if I wanna move back, but man... I have been spoiled. I seriously don't believe that it should be 89 degrees in the last month of October, that really seems unnatural to me. But eh, it is what it is right?

And yes, I am a big fan of the ellipse... it makes the writing flow much easier. The stream of thought style is so much easier to pull off this way.